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First Try

2010-12-23T07:45:00.001-08:00

Testing

Testing!!

2010-10-18T07:10:00.000-07:00

An Epiphany of life.

Haha i really like that song.

It's like a circle song. that keep repeating itself. Later than sooner (is there such a phrase?), you'll realised that you've actually repeated it umpteen times already! haha.

It's hard accepthing things isn't it. It's not just ignoring it. It's acceptance that is difficult.

Damn.

2010-10-03T01:55:00.000-07:00

Hahaha.

This is real random.

How many people are actually reading my blog? or even drop by.
I must applaud you for being die hard fans.

whahaha.

How's school?

Well i guess i'm in the pretty much lost mood for now. Trying to get used to everything STEEL i guess.

Some the answer doesn't really matter anymore. It's time to grow up.

2009-11-19T00:42:00.000-08:00

I wonder who still visits my blog here?

whahahaha...

I really wonder if everything was necessary.

All a fascade?

Pardon my limited usage of vocabulary.

Trying sooo hard to protect. Not even knowing what i'm protecting for.

But oh well. who cares. life goes on.

2009-06-20T09:00:00.000-07:00

Heh. Been a pretty long time since i last blogged.
Had NDP rehearsal at Marina today.
Met alot of people from all over the place.
People from BMT, Sispec, Engineers, PHS, NYJC.
Most interesting is people who find me familiar, I really think it's the common face that i have. heh heh.

2009-05-07T05:36:00.000-07:00

Once again.

I look at this and i wonder what should i say.

Not that I have nothing to say.

But i'm thinking of the consequences if i say certain things or update about certain stuff..

therefore...

You realised u just wasted about 30s reading this useless post =)

Amusing. very

2009-04-22T10:01:00.000-07:00

Are answers really that important ultimately?

Wow, i actually blogged after such a long time.

And it's not easy to make me blog again.

I assure u.

where is that light i used to see, or rather...

Now i realised that was all a fascade.
Why didn't i realise earlier.

hmmm... should i laugh or be sad.
But at least it was pathetically funny.
Correct me if i'm wrong. Heh.

Wedding day!

2009-03-19T01:16:00.001-07:00

YAY! it's wedding day! haha not mine though. will update more when i have the photos =)

anyway... hmm i cant really see the difference eh? maybe that's what puzzling me now. but oh well! no point thinking about it. HAH! WEDDING!

I realised

2009-03-18T01:42:00.000-07:00

That, one of the reason i'm jumping into conclusion so hastily is because I have this feeling that time is running out and every moment you have is very precious.

Maybe i was wrong, not that it's bad to cherish what you hold, but it'll only give you redundant problems brought my yourself.. hmm..

2009-03-15T04:06:00.000-07:00

Ages since i last blogged.

Many things changed.

Perspectives, emotions, values, people.

the last 4 days was off + weekend.

Went to quite a few places haha. thursday went to watch watchmen and ate at Lao Beijing. for the high tea buffet.. it's about 13 bucks! a large variety of food somemore =) go try if you have the time. bring ur parents especially.. think they might like it.

Watchmen. talking about certain issues like.. who guards the guardians?

you can start pondering after you finish reading this entry haha. Overall.. if you're going for action-pack movie, then this is the wrong choice. watch it and you'll understand why.

Then went to IT show on friday. bought a 320gb hard disk and a 8gb memory stick for PSP. hohoh. now my dissidia, dj max 2, 3 can all co-exist happily. with the additon of patapon 2. muhahahhaha.

went back to ny after that. borrowed clement's flute and played in the classroom when suddenly the new teacher-in-charge came in and started talking. haha. pretty supportive of the band i would say. would alumni be possible? i'm keeping my fingers crossed. lol.

i wonder how things will turn out from now on. Of course i'm hoping for the better =) good luck everyone, in everything you face and do. Don't lose yourself.

dangerous.

2009-02-16T06:58:00.000-08:00

Didn't sleep alot these few days. Lol but oh well.

Went for Food tasting today. haha.. hmm... Well.. kinda interesting. first time ma. haha

Things get around pretty quickly..

I'm worried how things will turn out though. Hahaha.. let's hope for the best

School :)

2009-02-12T08:06:00.000-08:00

WOOT!

Went back to NY today for Disco night with katrina, wh and wc. lol. I didn't even go for my own orientations'.
But not bad sia. It's actually quite fun. I only wished that i wasn't sick that time then I could have enjoyed that night. haha. but who knows? Maybe when it was that time.. things won't have been the same. lol.

The same hall.. the same floor. the same aircon.. the same digital clock. haha. Brings back memories eh?? The place we had our papers, gathered for assembly.. talk cock.. get results haha.

oh and had a nice laughing session after that at the coffee shop behind school. Katrina... MUHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA..haha.That leg hair product.. can sell eh!

Lemon tea brings back memories too...

Oh well.. today had retreat at Band..ZZZZZZZZZZ....

The past could not be changed anymore. The future awaits for you to unfold..

2009-02-03T06:06:00.000-08:00

what's this

why dont i have control over it?

I dont know...

2009-02-02T03:16:00.000-08:00

Quotes from ' Last Friends'

Did you know?

The reason I turn my eyes away from you,
is because I want to continue looking at you forever.

The reason I cant be that gentle with you,
is because I'm scared of losing you.

It would be good if these quiet days last forever..

If possible, forever..

Do you?

2009-01-25T05:10:00.000-08:00

Hmm.. do you bother keeping past messages?

Maybe that's why i'm still where i am now.

hmmmm

Because

2009-01-23T23:33:00.001-08:00

Because I understand what it means to take care of someone and being left alone by everyone else

Really?

2009-01-17T22:11:00.000-08:00

Why do people even bother when they don't really care?

Underlying motives.

Motives that you do not want to know of.

It's tiring to console and applease people isn't it.

Then whatever for?

Kok is tired.

Nice poems to look through and think about

2009-01-10T03:45:00.000-08:00

Was surfing through the net and found some nice literature stuff lol share with u guys.

Poems.

And Where Were You?
by Valerie

I never thought I'd see this day,
I never thought I'd feel this way,
You...a stranger to me now.
I'm left with emptiness...
I wish I knew how it could be,
That we were once so open and free.
You were like my brother..
yet so much more
I wish I would have seen what I see now before.
For, I did not and it's too late...
My friend, my lover once, is now unknown.
And what hurts the most is I now know..
What I lost.. and I'm alone.
To face a challenge life has sent,
And not a moment with you I've spent.
I hope one day I can forgive you, my friend..
I miss you....
Why did you go?

Losing A Piece Of My Soul
by Jasmine Johnston

I came to you the hour I was in pain
Looking for answers, I cried to you in vain.

I shared the many skeletons hiding in my heart,
I knew then you'd be my friend,I knew it from the start.

Troubles ran like rivers, flowing through my life,
You picked the pieces up and help me through my strife.

When home wasn't home to me no more,
You opened up your heart, and opened up the door.

We cried into night until the early morn.
We solaced each other's pain and shared our many thorns.

As time flew, the air grew thick,
I saw our friendship fading,
and my heart grew sick.
The day had arrived,

When it was time to say goodbye.
Now I sit alone,
reminiscing the past I'd blown.

Goodbye
by Rosebud

Well maybe now I should just say goodbye
You used to be my friend
But I never felt I really was yours
So maybe this is the end.
I'm different from you, all of you
Each other we've never understood
I hope that if I do tell you goodbye
That it won't be for good.
Whenever I'm mad it hurts me so bad
And you don't even care
I don't know why, I just want to cry
And someday I won't be there.
The streaks on my arm they've done me no harm
They're only made of pen
But once they are blood that turns brown like mud
They'll be there again and again.
If I'm mad at you I'll hurt myself too
But that doesn't really matter
Although when I hurt I feel like dirt
And my spirit's bruised and battered.
I do not know why it has to be so
I really wish it did not
But the way this has been going
it is basically shot.
You don't need me and we don't need we
And that's how I think I know why
These words are the ones I have to speak-
I love you, but goodbye.

Nice ah? Lol.

2009-01-06T06:37:00.000-08:00

Kok Wey feels like 1 litre of tears. LOL

what an expression sia.

Had a funny day during PT today. supposed to only run 3 rounds but got caught by encik for laxing so ran 4 rounds instead haha. should have been 5 though =X

hmmmm...

humans need to know how to save themselves from pain.

Emotions are scary.

Very scary.

2008-12-07T21:21:00.000-08:00

Wow...

WOW...

I'm updating. Lol

These 2 weeks.. hmm.. exciting haha.

Well.. were having rehearsals for parades and i played cymbals for one of it. not the real one though. lol dang my 1st time.. my 1st TIME!

Had ocs rehearsals too. met bmt mates, school mates and class mates =)
All i can say is that well done!! Maybe some of you thought that you couldn't make it but you all did!

Did quite a bit of thinking.. anyway.. this song is damn nice hoh hoh.

张惠妹&萧敬腾 - 一眼瞬间

(女)白茫茫的星光
洒在长长路上
想念的冰凉
你知道吗
你浅浅的微笑
深似海的眼光
都能掀起我
滔天的巨浪

(男)你相信吗
这是命吗
这次我们放弃抵抗
哪怕拥抱在身上
画下深深的伤

(合)只要看你一眼一瞬间
哪怕是最后画面
我的世界
因为爱过而完美
谁都不该离太远
只要看你一眼一瞬间
足够我熬过千年
我不后悔
爱若让末日提前
我们要一起
好好迎接那句点

(女)白茫茫的星光
洒在长长路上
想念的冰凉
你知道吗
你浅浅的微笑
深似海的眼光
都能掀起我
滔天的巨浪

(男)你相信吗
这是命吗
这次我们放弃抵抗
哪怕拥抱
在身上画
下深深的伤

(合)只要看你一眼一瞬间
哪怕是最后画面
我的世界
因为爱过而完美
谁都不该离太远
只要看你一眼一瞬间
足够我熬过千年
我不后悔
爱若让末日提前
我们要一起
好好迎接那句点

(女)如果相爱是错

(男)错过又算什么

(合)这一次我们
宁死不放手
往彼此的心里跳
跳过天荒地老
Wo Oh ...
只要看你一眼一瞬间
哪怕是最后画面
我的世界
因为爱过而完美
谁都不该离太远
只要看你一眼一瞬间
足够我熬过千年
我不后悔
爱若让末日提前
我们要一起好好迎接那句点

2008-11-22T02:47:00.001-08:00

doing for the sake of doing is not my policy.

2008-11-15T08:04:00.000-08:00

The beautiful sunrise,

watching it afar

alone.

2008-10-26T06:49:00.001-07:00

Woot!

successfully made my cheesecake with peach in and on it. lol looks good eh?

HEH HEH HEH...

One for $25.90

you tink can sell??

lol

Thanks gloria for the recipe!

2008-10-14T08:14:00.000-07:00

somethings are just like water

the more you try to hold it, feel it. It simply flows down and away from your hand.

and when you try too hard, and freeze the water and think that it will stay obediently. you're wrong.

time will show you that nothing can be held in our arms forever.

Nothing can withstand the cruelness of time.

Things to be learnt: Know our limits, do the right thing at the right time.

2008-10-12T07:31:00.000-07:00

hmmm... somehow it feels as if i'm back to Secondary 3.

Been reading too much into things that it makes me tired.

Not physically but mentally

Need a break for my brain before i see things going other way again

2008-10-12T05:27:00.001-07:00

suffocating lol

2008-10-11T09:33:00.000-07:00

好不容易得来的快乐叫幸福。。。

已经拥有了幸福就要珍惜。。。

快乐与幸福之间的线不需画得那么清楚。。。

因为。。。能得到它以经不容易了。。。

2008-10-05T07:32:00.000-07:00

OOoo...

haha...

Wowww...

o.O

I'm in SAF BAND =)

Just wonder... (like i always do)

Humans.. we based our happiness on comparison most of the time isn't it?
When we look at what we have in our arms...
and we peep at what others have..
the grass seems to be greener at the other side.

on the other hand.. if the other side is a total ruin compared to our small patch of grass.. suddenly ours seem nicer and we gladly stick to it.

2008-10-01T07:36:00.000-07:00

woah. i actually wrote something like this.

Too often we don't realize
what we have until it is gone;
Too often we wait too late to say
"I'm sorry- I was wrong."
Sometimes it seems we hurt the ones
we hold dearest to our hearts;
And we allow foolish things
to tear our lifes apart

Far too many things we let
unimportant things get into our minds;
And then it's usually too late
to see what made us blind.

So be sure to let people know
how much they mean to you;
Take that time to say the words
before that time is through.

Be sure that you appreciate
everything you've got
And be thankful for the little things
in life that mean alot.

2008-09-11T05:39:00.000-07:00

The right to love.
the right to do this.

To hate something that you love so much.. must have been very painful to do that.

Something is wrong with me.
I'm pretty sure.
But i dunno what exactly it is...

I dun feel the same as i do last time
Or was it cos i had an aim in mind??

Doing my best for everyone.
Not showing how i really feel inside.. but now??
It's like i dun even have anything to show.
Not that i want to...
But i just dun feel anything.
Which is not really myself.

Passing the days as if it's just another day.
It's not really me to do that.
I might laze around on my free days.
But at least i know what i was doing.

hmmm... how?

Moving on..

2008-09-08T07:53:00.000-07:00

yay new skin haha. duno if it's too girlish though.. hmm.. let's see..

anyway.. shall post photos from the past again =)

NY planned for some of the CCAs to go St James Powerstation(Dragonfly) to enjoy ourselves after the hard work we put in for SYF 2007
I wonder how some of u guys are doing...

Dont worry.. that's just coke and sprite =)

on the way to.. suntec for movie i tink =)

seems aeon ago...

Oh yes.. i went to look at my archives and i realised i din post any photos regarding SYF last year!LOL i know it's pretty outdated.. but.. whatever!

RANDOM shots with the trumpet section =)

yd v high that day =.=
Uncle Heng.. bwhahaha

me with shichie and chester

Xiao An...

Look at how messy the room is... oh my.. hahahaha...

J8 =)) Look at their happy faces and u know everything's worth it

2008-09-07T02:43:00.000-07:00

Muhahaha.
I very much want to share my things in chronological order..
but i just dunno how to start. so.. i shall randomly post photos and talk about them then.

31th August 2008
Birthday celebration with YOGA at Suntec =)

I like this jump shot haha

haha the parents of the "yi tiao" baby

All 6 of us

the BDAY KIDS! muhahaha

Thank you for the cake and the present!! haha i'll wear the jacket de =)

2008-09-04T05:04:00.000-07:00

hmm.. have been hearing alot of things happening around me.
I really wonder why..

Life is fragile in it's little ways..

Today morning remember that uncle u saw while going to school or going to work??
you wont know..
wont know when is the next time you might see im again.

Life's like that.. things that you take for granted will b gone in a sudden and all you've left is an empty shell that you need to fill it with...whatever not you have.

It's realli like that. One moment.. the moment? gone.

I'm worried

Pretty worried.

Maybe i'm just paranoid

In the end... Life goes on i guess...

2008-09-02T08:23:00.000-07:00

haha. random photos shall b uploaded in a while.
Manage to get these photos out of my old Motorola ROKR phone. heh heh
They're like thumbnail size so just try to see what u can eh?
Wah... J1

Mr Yong sleeping beside CT o.O

Chinese Lesson i tink =)

Birthday Celebration with Presby =) 2006
Ah Tee

Hoi Ki (grand-duaghter)

Wan Yee (somehow related)

Caryn(CC)

Phyllis

Random Shots at bench outside canteen =)
Whahahaha...

Pervertic YD!

Never-changing GLOrIa

SHAO MING~

Mr Twin.

And... Garfield at shop outside NYJC that behaves like a human.

haha. those were the photos taken in J1. that's 2006.
well of course there's more photos that i din put up haha. will slowly upload more photos.
Brings back alot of memories eh??
Nostalgic~~

2008-07-19T09:24:00.000-07:00

totally random photos.. WHAHAAH

well... meet miss pearly mouth. whahah...

haha went wh house for a while on a certain saturday. Cant remember when also. whahaha. went with yifang and cxst.

then last saturday had a mini gathering with the class before going for dinner at botak jones as well. that day was a super unglam day sia... tsk tsk.

2008-07-19T09:09:00.000-07:00

the classic.
after many attempts ;)

we actually look alike to a certain extent here...

fun trip to mind's cafe playing UGLY*3 =) and LOTR monopoly

haha i shall update. yay.. post some random photos taken since the past few WEEKS.. haha pai seh lah. i'm slow. lazy to get the dates out.. so shall just spam them here haha.

2008-07-03T07:56:00.000-07:00

haha shall just post some photos here first. shall update tml.

2008-06-29T03:04:00.000-07:00

Shall talk about this show that i've been watching for the past few days.

LAST FRIENDS

<---if u look carefully are the photo u might notice some things...

so pretty...

hahah.. ueno juri used to look like this...and they transformed her into..(up)

AHHHHH.. she look so good in this

hahaha... anyhow... i strongly recommend those who have the time to watch this jap drama series.. LAST FRIENDS.

It's not like those any other shows where they show how people interact with one another.. what's going on in each of their life and such stuff.. this was so much more to it. while i was watching it.. it only got really interesting from episode 3 onwards.. how their lives are inter-dependent on one another. Not that one cannot live without the other.. but more of how one becomes part of another's life.

In the opening of every episode, 5 words were emphasized.

Love, Liberation, Agony, Solitude, Contradiction

Unlike some other shows.. each and everyone of the cast plays a very important role.. this goes back to the japanese culture sia.. haha they're very serious and hardworking.. yeah man.

dang. haha need to prepare for book in already. anyway. Please go watch this show =)) it's worth your time. jya ne

Will blog again when i'm back =)

2008-06-22T08:32:00.000-07:00

Hahaha..
i'm here to update my blog..Duh.

okok shall be spamming lots of photos ilke alot of people are doing on their blogs.
but first.. i shall do the quiz that i was deem that i wont do it. muhaha..

HERE GOES~~

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
hmmm...i will betray her. LOL that's childish.. ehh.. of course i would talk it out with her. It's not easy to let of it so quickly as well right??

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
I wish myself to be more understanding and be more tolerant.

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
muhahaha.. wad a question. I'm still young (shy)
ehh... with the one i truly desire beside me??

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
another funny one.. I dun call myself prophet.And how can i b confused when i dun even know what lies ahead?? hmm...

5. What is your ideal lover like?
someone who compliment and compromise. one another =)

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
haha both bah.. enough said.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
whahahaha.. i dun tink i really have the choice of chosing some time period.. it'll come naturally.. i hope!

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
I'll wait.. and that will depends on their situation as well.. if she's doing good and everything.. All the best =)

9. Is being tagged fun?
whahaha.. to a certain extent yes? knowing some of the people who visits ur blog =)

10. How do you see yourself in ten years' time?
hmmm... hopefully married and i dun mind being a teacher. lol i cant imagine myself doing other things other than service departments or HR i guess.

11. Who are currently the most important people to you?
Family..hmm... everyone plays a part in my life eh..

12. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
muhahaha.. witty and down to earth person?? o.o

13. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
married but poor =)

14. What's the first thing you do every morning?
telling myself that i'll ORD?? whahahahaha...

15. Would you give it all in a relationship?
hahaha.. wad's the point of not doing so?? so that you wont get hurt?? lol..

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
hmmm firstly i would hate myself for doing so... and... i'll have to pick one i guess.

17. What type of friends do you like?
those that reciprocates =)

18. What type of friends do you dislike?
those that dont reciprocates? whahahahah.. my answers are so... urgh..

haha okok now i'll try to update u guys on wat's going on these few months.. yes months. hahahah.
that day when we popped from BMT, more photos were take in fact.. shall show u my section photo.

haha... wonder how are they doing now.
still talk to timo and derek...but not really wth the rest of them though.. heard eugene is going to go through some operations sia.. haiz.. shall find out about him also.. operation on brain or smth.. hmm..

haha bmt really is the most fun part of the army life i guess. lol but i've only been through 6 months of it.. =.= still got some distance to go.. but oh well.. it will b over somehow and some day.. so...

after that was some super shoik 12 days of break man..
all hell break loose.. muhahaha. that day mom and 2nd sis came for my POP. lol for more information on POP. u can refer to previous entries... =) lazy to repeat them all over again.. haha i have more things to say later on.

if i remembered correctly... on the thursday after the pop. our platoon had a gathering at PS and our PC came haha. it was a weird feeling as the moment i din know wad to call him when we saw him.. too used to calling him sir in camp already haha. and it's kinda weird to still call that when we're outside in normal clothings lol.

2008-06-07T20:22:00.000-07:00

Once again.. I'm here to update my deadly silenced blog. haha.
Today's date is 8th June 2008.
If u happened to be reading this.. then please turn on ur speakers as well. lol
It's playing OST from the game, Grandia II.
Nice song to put on blogs eh..

OH i shall go out for a while.. will b back soon =)

2008-03-15T23:17:00.000-07:00

muahahha.. i'm here to update my dead blog. since many people have been complaining about this. haha.. shall talk about the most recent 'major' event first. The POP.

11th March 2008 was the day when we recruits finally passed out from BMT. haha.. this might seem as a small occasion when we moved on with our army life but well.. it is still significant to us, those standing there, looking at our parents/friends/whoever sitting there.. while the rain poured heavily on our helmet haha.. these 3 months passed just like that..met alot of interesting.. clever..different people(duh)..haha.. have a v nice buddy from acjc timothy..he's a famous dude btw. need to get the photo then can show u guys.. he look like Ms Chiew as well. LOL

some photos from POP.

2008-02-06T06:48:00.000-08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!

=)))

2007-12-23T18:09:00.000-08:00

Muhahaha...
2nd time book out le...
cant believe i was inside for about 10 days already.
Lol.

well army can be pretty funny at times.. cos you'll meet amusing people from all kinds of league.
like... trying to wear the tag while wearing helmet??
muhahaha...

i'll update more later

2007-11-16T18:20:00.000-08:00

this is superb too.. sugoi...

2007-11-16T18:03:00.000-08:00

hahahahahahaha

I tink 'chiaki''s hair is nice in this though hahahahhaa

2007-11-11T05:43:00.000-08:00

I believe in equality.
Although that's pretty much difficult to achieve.
I still want to believe in it.

But i know.
You won't think this way.
True, there's a difference between males and females.
But that doesnt mean that everyone is that different.

Open ur eyes and see.

Choose what you wan to believe too.
Since no one can control what's going on inside.
Go on.

=)

2007-11-10T05:08:00.000-08:00

haha
shall make ur day..

well.. i didn't know i was so good looking until i saw this...

MUAHAHAHAHHAHA

2007-11-05T02:23:00.000-08:00

Woot!

Few more papers to go.. just had geog today. ANyway..
It's OVER!!! WOOT

share wif u this music video by utada hikaru, those who play kingdom hearts 2 would know.
I simply love the animation at the start and how she summon those dancers mid-way of the music video.
Trap me in a world of fantasy..

=)

2007-10-17T05:09:00.000-07:00

Due to very popular demands.. Yes i'm referring to my tag board lol.

A FEW MORE DAYS!
TO A LEVEL'S!
DAMN FAST.. sian..
It seems that my blog is showing that there's nothing going on in my life but that's a FALLACIOUS statement alright?!
Sometimes it's more of too much to say that i've become too lazy to report them. Lol.
Yes I'm THAT LAZY.

Been having mock papers almost everyday for this week, yups been doing our own mock papers as well.. interesting eh?? Oh ya. Yesterday wevhez showed me some hilarious videos on youtube. Just go there and type 'The Sketch Show' it's a good way to start ur day! seriously. the jokes are definitely of high standard, unlike mine.. @#$#%^&%%%

Nvm!

sometimes life is too complicated.. or rather that's how we think.
Many problems in our lives are created by ourselves.
ZZZZzzz..

都已走到这了。。
真的没办法了吗？
放手是错的吗？
好可笑啊。。

人心变幻莫测啊。。
多宽容，多了解。。

多笑多笑！

=）

2007-10-08T06:52:00.000-07:00

I see...

2007-09-22T07:00:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry but if you keep reading you'll most probably get emo and stuff.
Lol, but that's what i like to talk about.
Things that everyone experience but not many choose to talk about it.

Prelim's just over. Yesterday was the last paper.Oh well.

Have been indulging in Jap drama series. wooh hah.
Just finished watching Nobuta Wo Produce and Hana Kimi( Jap Version).

These phrases kept flashing through my mind after i watched the show.

The day when no one believes in something, that thing simply disappears.

Even if you fell to the bottom, life doesn't end.

Something becomes a fact when you believe in it.

While watching Nobuta, i felt so much for the main character.
I see many similarities.

Can anyone really be selfless??
However, in our current society, anyone that acts that way would most have a high chance of being seen as hypocrite and have some other motives.

When i 1st watched Nobuta Wo Produce, true enough, i wasn't really interested to carry on since it seems weird(the plot and characters), but i did anyway, and i didn't regret watching it till the end.

In everything we do.. you might do the same things with 2 different groups of people. but the feeling you get might be totally different. Isn't that about friends? going with those who u are comfortable with.

When there are nice people, you would expect evil people to exist as well.
Why would there b evil people??
Sometimes the evil people are those who really need the care and concern, by taking away what others have that they don't, they then make sure the other party feels the same as they do. So they won't feel lonely in the end??

2007-08-29T08:38:00.000-07:00

Tml's GP prelim paper. LOL
I'll do my best for Ms Chiew haha.

This month's been birthday for many people. =)

I wonder what happened.

I really wonder.

I guess not really everyone is willing to listen.

Just listen.

I don't know to say if it's anyone's fault too since it seems like we've been shaped into this by reality.

But i guess this will carry on.

Like how it started.

Negligence, indifference, ignorance, self-centered, what more?

Very soon EVERYONE will have this barrier of distrust which some are already quite obvious now.

Holding on too tightly?

Thinking too much?

Yea. Maybe.

My sis said this many times to me.

"For a 18 yr old, why are you thinking about stuff like that?"

Well.. true that whatever she's facing now might be trillion times far worse than me, more shitty and all.

But it's a indisputable issue that that's just how i think about things.

There should be plenty of people out there who thinks the same way as i am.

Seems like the presence of internet doesn't necessarily bring people closer to one another eh?

Simplicity is a rare sight now.

when i talk about human, I include myself in too btw.

ZZZZ hate it. to the core.

2007-08-14T06:36:00.000-07:00

到底，为了那些不能放弃的。。我们又放弃了什么呢。。

这样写博客真的是有一番风味啊。。

最近的我好像一只看见了纸上的那一粒点

那粒黑点。。看似渺小。。但为什么有如此碍眼呢？

我不想这样。。

孤单？你孤单吗？

那这又是谁照成的？

自作自受吗？

是我的错还是。。

我知道这已是个无可挽回的事实了。。

转眼间。。都变了。。

生长在新加坡的我们。。

到底跟外国那些生长在大城市的又有些什么分别呢？

华语好棒。。呵呵。。

似乎写得很EMO

还好吧？

2007-08-13T07:28:00.001-07:00

用华文来写博客看起来似乎比较难读些，可是我认为这比较让我能够把偶尔心里想的一些事情表达出来。而且我也发现很少新加坡人会以华语来博客吧。。呵呵。。

看了盛夏光年。。虽然他的主题不是每个新加坡人都可以接受的。。但是它背后的故事却是你我都有可能会遇到的。

到底爱情与友情之间那道线，每个人是如何对待它呢？到底这条线代表了什么？

很多人都说友情是爱情的一种，但是往往许多友情都被着所谓的爱情给破坏了。爱情与友情确实是有几曾相似的。这句话许多人应该听说过了，爱情就像是在放风筝，该放时就放，倒是抓得太紧了，风筝就会不顾你而自己飞走了。。倒是的你后悔也太迟了不是吗？后悔当初没把手给松开。。可能这么做，大家都还是可以当朋友。。

也有人说。。爱情是盲目的。。当局者迷旁观者清（我不知怎么写）在这世上，每人能说谁做的是对或错，有道理或没。。应为人们都是靠着自己心里说搞许他们而作出行动的吧？每个人心中都有自己多同一件事情的看法。。这又是如何衡量的呢？

虽然有了个嘴巴。。有时也真的派不上用场啊。。

没有事情是永恒的。。抓住现在，把握未来，为+将来努力吧！

2007-08-06T08:48:00.001-07:00

hmm my thoughts are pretty messed up now
dang..
bleah.. oh well

2007-08-01T08:53:00.000-07:00

没有人应该是孤独的。。那我们呢?

我们长大了..什么事情都变了..

2007-07-29T07:24:00.000-07:00

你认为人被天灾害死比较惨，还是被人祸所害死比较惨呢？

活着的比较惨吧？

您的看法又是如何呢？

我很想快速的把感想都在这写出来可是就是还不习惯用华文写。。会慢很多吧。。呵呵
真正的关心不需要说出口吧。。往往都是在我们不知情的情况下透漏出来的。
受到关怀与慰问的人会有许多不一样的反应。。有些会觉得自己已被别人看不起而盖起了一层防护膜，反倒过来觉得他人多管闲事，自己不需要别人的督促。

有些时候，我们可以自己把事情做好。但我们是为了什么问别人呢？难道是空虚吗？
世上的每一个人都自己的一本“生活宝典”，自己本身对于生活上的点点滴滴。。我们往往忽略了其他的人。。都只为了自己的利益而做事情，这样真的是值得吗？也许人们都忘了由其他人也同时在受苦。。脸上虽然看不出什么，但仔细看了看。。也许你会发现也许别人过得比我们还不快了。。

我们为什么要把自己的快乐建设在别人的不快乐呢？？那样得来的幸福，真的值得吗？

人与人之间的互动。。那是多么美妙。。多么奇妙的一件事啊。。

也许你嘴说不出来。。但是心里所想得都呈现出来了。。没关系。。那是我拿手功夫。。我顶！

2007-07-28T07:26:00.000-07:00

HOO HAH!
lol random.
I'm really growing more and more lazy as the days go by..

Hmm.. just wanna share this phrase which i've heard from the principal and friends.

"The Reason Why I Succeed Is Because I Am A Loner"

It sounds pretty ironic.
But once we really think through.. it does make alot of sense.

not that that's wad i've been trying to do though...

2007-07-19T08:31:00.000-07:00

So that was what exactly that happened.
Guess i'm partly correct.
What's with this weird emptiness?
I dunno how to fill it up.

Sometimes i wished you were there
just be yourself.
Sometimes i wished you were here
right at my side

So the same thing is happening again eh?
felt just like De ja vu.
Didn't it happened before?
No, I'm tired already.

I should have known that people are like this, the way they are.
Well. At least i'm still able to feel the way i am now.
How practical can people get?
Comparatively, those who act based on emotions are considered rash and illogical?

I like music.
I like how they're played.
I like how people can relate to them.
But music was also how it all started.

I can only say that you're pretty dumb.
but not that dumb till you cant survive in this world.
but dumb enough to be used by others.
Disposable i guess.
I like walls.
protection.

2007-07-16T07:46:00.000-07:00

I tink i juz had the worse day in my life.
And i cant believe how absent minded and careless i was today.
My mind's a blank.
Maybe just too tired.
oh well.

I'm starting to get used to all these stuff happening.
WOOT.

I STILL CAN BELIEVE HOW CARELESS AND MUDDLE-HEADED I WAS
wad was i thinking man..

AHHH.. NVM.

It'll b over. =)

2007-07-06T06:20:00.000-07:00

Again, some random thoughts went through my mind throughout the day

There are a few general kind of people in this world.
Let me share with you a few kinds.. those that i can think of

(i) The kind of people who are willing to listen.
I THINK, in this current world, society.. there are getting less and less people who are willing to listen to one another. Be it telling the other party what you've been doing for the day, sharing your problems.. or even sharing your joy.. well.. not everyone is that selfish i think.. and of course, there will be those who choose not to listen. Some might think that if they cant even solve their own problems.. why should they even care about others? Well, i agree some sort.. it's practical isn't it? though it sounds a lil self-centered.. but who isnt too?

(ii) The kind of people who talks crap with you
The key words here are "with you". Lol, not that they talk rubbish to you, but you reply rubbish to them too! haha. Well.. it's good to simply talk rubbish at times.. not that it makes you look stupid.. but i guess its a form of relaxation?? It's fun to say something stupid.. and then laugh at your own stupid comments in the end. Isn't it good to laugh at youself? well.. not in a sarcastic way..but realli.. juz laugh =) it's good for health

(iii) The kind of people who makes you feel stupid while talking to them
There are many many different kinds of people we'll meet in our lives.. some of those you might find enjoyable talking to them.. while some are not. I guess the way we judge people will definitely conclude how we treat them. So we should not rely on 1st impressions all right?! haha.. to a certain extent would be good. well.. there's no single person on earth that's exactly the same as you, so.. you'll bound to meet people who are of higher caliber. don't be put down.. try not to be affected too much.. TRY.. cos.. who knows wad you'll learn from them?

Well.. there is a variety of many others.. lol. well.. i guess all of us are a lil of each at some point of time.. depending on the people we meet, we display different part of ourselves.. do you call that hypocritical?? i dunno lol

2007-07-04T09:07:00.000-07:00

HEHS.
Seeing things which i wished i'm blind.

Inquisitive does not necessarily bring you good.

Knowing how people think and act disgusts you at times.

But as another human, we should just compromise since our actions will affect others as well.

It's pretty obvious to see what's happening around you sometimes.
That's what we as humans should do.
No one should be thinking only about themselves..

But feelings are something that is not easily spoken.
I see that's the past.. so things have changed now.
I understand.
I've seen through you.
n m weary of that.
OH well!

Life still carry on no matter what.
It's never a bed of roses anyway..
Be thankful for those who cares for you.. we lead our own life. decide what we want to do.

Thanks juniors today!!! =) work hard everyone!

2007-07-02T07:12:00.000-07:00

I don't tink i'm that blind.

Even if i cant see.. i'll still feel it. I can.

That feeling is long gone..

So lost that i cant even reminisce.

Why do people blog?

Think.

The answer's not that hard anyway. maybe diary is really a better choice. =)

GOOD LUCK TO PEOPLE STILL HAVING EXAMINATIONS!

2007-06-23T11:32:00.000-07:00

Woot! just uploaded a song on this blog.

I'm not realli studying.. not that i dont want to, but more of i cant find the motivation to do so. I know that getting good grades for As are impt. It's like we know all these. but we just lack the motivation to do so. DAMN. It feels so different from last time.

I'll still try to study though.. cant just sit there and do nothing.. I need to find it..

2007-06-19T09:22:00.000-07:00

Woot! heh heh.. haven been blogging recently again..opps.. hahahaha.. i'm obessed with Nodame Cantabile!

Its a jap series that originated from the anime. Talks about orchestra playing.. the emotions that musicians have.. and some sparks of love that were created.. the story line is cool. and you can just tell how much effort they have put in to make it look very similar to the original anime/ manga version.. i just love the way the female lead actress present herself.. She's dam cute in the show! just 3 years older?! that's 21 only! oooooo... lol and the more amazing thing is.. she starred in SWING GIRLS as the tenor saxophone player!!

I tink she's dam cool! and she changed alot too! she's became more mature le.. lol took me quite a while to realise who she was.. It's good!! =) Think she was.. 19 or 18 when they filmed this movie... AHHHH.. NODAME.. =)

Pretty =) hehahah...

The lead actor Hiroshi Tamaki also dam cool! woot! Idol! hahaha..

this show made me think.. =)

Been studying these few days.. and as usual thinking about loads of stuff the power of love.

We've become so wary of what we speak that we stopped saying anything truthful anymore..

I'll wait.. for that to happen.. wait wait..

If you have the time, please do watch Nodame Cantabile! =)

For more information on this show.. you can visit liying's blog! she's got more explicit information.. sorry to use the same picture though.. lol.. but i tink it's the best out of all =)

Study hard people!

2007-06-06T21:00:00.000-07:00

ROAR!

juz wanna share something today.
haha.

Is there really something call fairness in this world?
Equality? Think not.
Many times in life we put in alot of of effort trying to get attention from a particular someone. however, in the end, what we received is nothing.. well, maybe it's my own fault for expecting too much, or juz hoping that people can reciprocate.. but that's juz the ideal situation ba.. i guess i've realli been expecting too much.. if i din maybe i would feel much better? but that would also mean that i would be more aimless than before.. do i sound emo? i don't know. there has been too many restrictions for me to show my true self. Well, at least i can hide them when i want to.. and i do it pretty well i guess.. would this allow me to surviv in the society? shit. thinking too much again. haha.

说长不长说短不短，

In our lives, there are people who leave their footprints at some point of our life.. however, are there realli people who stepped in and never left? how difficult would that be huh..
sometimes, our actions dont seem to be appreciated by others.. so how should we react to them then? Or due to certain events, time have cruelly dilute the relationships between people.. sad. but it's true..

I'm still waiting.. waiting for that one to appear.. knowing how to put things down is different from keeping them some where in your heart and hoping that it would disappear somehow..

Lol i tink soon people wun wan to read my blog cos it's getting difficult to understand.. with that lousy ang moh of mine.. lol i should try blogging in chinese then..

ok anyway.. juz felt like doing so.. this is the add for my old blog.. i saw how i grew up. lol. read if u're real bored. http://ahkok.easyjournal.com/

And another Poem

Everyday,we awaken with another chance at Life.
Sometimes we forgot how lucky we are and often forget
to appreciate the little things around us, that mean so much
Here's a poem I wish to share with all of you
Thank you for being a part of this wonderful group......

Too often we don't realize
what we have until it is gone;
Too often we wait too late to say
"I'm sorry- I was wrong."
Sometimes it seems we hurt the ones
we hold dearest to our hearts;
And we allow foolish things
to tear our lifes apart

Far too many things we let
unimportant things get into our minds;
And then it's usually too late
to see what made us blind.

So be sure to let people know
how much they mean to you;
Take that time to say the words
before that time is through.

Be sure that you appreciate
everything you've got
And be thankful for the little things
in life that mean alot.

2007-06-06T07:38:00.000-07:00

This whole thing juz sucks.

I'll do what i'm best at.

Shant think.

Keep moving and i wont have time to think of the hard facts.

2007-06-01T10:08:00.000-07:00

ZzzZzZZZZZzzZZzz...
what's the point of thinking about it
no use going so far..
or am i just expecting too much.

The more you expect, the higher you'll fall.
OUCH.
I felt it.
Truely.

2007-05-31T05:12:00.000-07:00

Phew, ok i shall blog now.
After many thousands of attempts to blog my thoughts out and clicking the red button at the top right hand corner of the screen.
LOL

Ok and i just realised that way i blog is different now.
Somewhat different ba.. haha
Now i'm realli like blogging once every month.. summarise all my thoughts into one small post. How is that ever possible anyway..

Anyway..

Nanyang Junior College's Symphonic Band

SYF 2007

GOLD AWARD

yay!! 1st gold in dunno how many donkey years.. LOL 30?? not that sure.. but the fact is that NYJC band has gotten gold.. just dunno how ancient was that.. but anyway..

I'm very proud of everyone who have been through this whole journey with the band together

to be there for each other

listening for one another

Well, in a group of people working.

Not all have the common goal in their mind

We cant force people to have the same mind set, mentality

As the words suggest, it all have to do with the mind..

What we can only do is to influence

Influence..

No point forcing

Since it's not sincere in anyway

I'm getting lousier

Seriously.. i seem to not be able to talk as well as i did last time.. even if compared to primary sch times, i used to be sooo good at cheering ppl up(self-proclaimed)... oh well! what happened? o.o

I'm not that good in talking anymore, i know it.

However, talking to people is one of the greatest joy in my life

Letting them know that i'm there..

Once again, I'm starting to think that i'm a superman.LOL

Cos in reality, that's not going to happen.

As much as i want that to happen..

I'm human myself too.. how? dunno. haha

Time is just as cruel as how everyone talks about it.

sounds cliche but.. it's true how fast it ticks like no body's business and shock you in the end how everything is over. Dam u time! Dam uuuuuuuu.. (fades off)

Why am i stil being affected by that which happened 4 years ago?
All these while.. nothing was done..
BaH.. i've lost. Lost to the environment.

2007-05-04T09:23:00.000-07:00

Have been pretty quiet lately.
Like just quiet..
Not as if i don't talk anymore.
But more of.. i don't talk about it anymore.. not that i can remember of anytime which i did..

Maybe that's why i tink i've grown, either that or i'm turing into a zombie.
I feel heavy.. real heavy.

BUT i'm still gonna jia you for the next one week.. It's juz gna be this one week before everything ends.. well.. i realli have been juz tinking about SYF that i've forgotten about the fact that we'll step down very soon after SYF.

This one yr.. is happening in a way to me.
Everyone have their own stories to tell.. their own parts and parcel of life.. how this one yr worked for them..no matter what.. it's gna end soon.. real soon.. it's been too fast to actually slow down and think properly what happened in this yr..

I have so much to say... but you juz aren't listening.. or is it that we speak different language now..

2007-04-29T10:41:00.000-07:00

I've finally blogged after one month. Lol

Time flies.. no matter how many times i've said this.. i still think.. it flies.. way too fast for me to handle.

Shall talk about band first.

11 days to SYF.

The big day and final chance of SYF to most of us.

The day where we are suppose to do our best, to the most of our ability, standing up, walking out of the conference hall with no regrets, knowing that, 'i've done my best'.

There are definitely hard work that people have put in this preparation.

This race will soon come to an end, whether we win it anot.. it's a different story.

But it's the process.. the amt of work.. the amt of maturity.. the amt of trust and encouragement that we give each other..

Many times in life.. Amt of time spend might be equates to the quality of product.. but why?

Not everything is of a 100% efficiency, in life we give and take.. the only way to do this is to give in our very best.. and i really mean VERY BEST.

It wouldn't be in any case fair if onli a portion of the people work hard.. this is a race.. a race where each and everyone run together, hand in hand, juz to reach the final destination. Be it we win the race anot.

Many times.. the solution is already there.. we know what we should be doing.. just that we are not putting in the effort to do it. Serious! we know at this particular point.. we'll go flat.. sharp or whatsoever.. juz that little more effort to make it sound so much better.. but some of us just aren't doing it..y? Practices might be a little more taxing and tiring nowadays.. but i'm sure it's worth it everyone put in the effort. I'm sure many at times we hear how the band sounds better we would definitely be much motivated to play..Think about it.

Another point that i want to talk about it this.. until a few weeks ago.. after what Mr Tan said, i realised that i was also too "medal-minded".. all before that.. all i tink was to get the gold get the gold.. but isn't music making all about enjoying it? By tinking juz about the gold.. it will not get us anywhere.. only when we want to do it, we will get it.

enjoy the process.. enjoy the music.. enjoy ur life.. NYJCSB! Walk out with our heads high! Not being arrogant, but simply we did our best!

2007-04-01T09:04:00.000-07:00

Many days when i want to blog, after typing a few sentences.
I decided to stop and juz close the window.
Reason? I'm thinking of people's reaction after reading my blog entries and i juz stopped.

I'm realli not that good wif my words when it comes to consoling people anymore as compared to me when i was younger.. say primary sch that time?

Yea, maybe things weren't that complicated that time? Things were as simple as A,B, C. Literally. How easy it is to bring a smile to a small young kid.. juz give him a sweet, or making funny faces at them, and they'll smile/ laugh at you... just that simple.

But now, there are many other factors that we need to consider when we talk to other people.. many many others.. So many that i dont know when this entry will end at.

Sometimes i tink people might juz tink that i'm blind or something.. i dont dare to say that i see alot of things.. but i can only say that sometimes i realli wished i was blind.

Read junwei's blog.. dang.. his poems are all dam nice. super meaningful and.. chim lol..

Maybe i might juz stop blogging soon.
At least i wont tink so much about how people will feel when they read my blog. =)

2007-03-17T08:05:00.000-07:00

Juz came back from sch and had my dinner.

Sometimes we really hate ourselves for doing somethings, even at times for not doing some things. For reacting the way to others.. sometimes, some people dun give a damn how they treat others, as long as they're happy, that's fine. On the contrary, there are also people who will be there for you, but in the end, you took them for granted and when all is lost, it's too late to do anything. I'm not being emo or anything, just want to do some reflection and thinking about life.

Go watch this Video.

Bringing you, ''The Truth Is".

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yNyz5vrI3e0

Everywhere I look, I turn, it seems that you are there

Everyone I leave, I learn that they cannot compare

Everything I see, I do, I touch, I think of you

Every little thing in life

It leaves me so confused

Oh, everything was so, so clear before we tore apart

Now all my passion's trapped inside

This lonely broken heart

So if you ask, if you must know

I'll tell you, here's the truth

If you ask, if you must know

I wouldn't lie to you

If you ask, if you must know

I'll tell you, here's the truth

Do I love you? Love you, still?

The truth is...I do

Now without you here, the sky turned a new shade of clear

A new rain of tears

And without you here, my body's a lonely frontier

An ocean of fears

So if you ask, if you must know

I'll tell you, here's the truth

If you ask, if you must know

I wouldn't lie to you

If you ask, if you must know

I'll tell you, here's the truth

Do I love you? Love you, still?

The truth is...I do

I definitely love the verse in green, it's so good. =)

The Past's over, the Future's coming and the Present's for us to control.

I'm so mesmerised by the music, lyrics and in fact everything.I juz find it so complete.

Study HArd people!=)

Happy 18th Bday Gloria! =) Smile!! =)

2007-03-12T00:29:00.000-07:00

Let all these be snowflakes..
Slowly they descend from the sky.. letting you see how fragile it is
Then for you to feel it, touch it, admire it and slowly.. it fades away.. leaving no traces behind.

Changes has to be done..

BE GONE EARTHLING~ That's wad my sis calls me. Earthling =)

2007-03-05T06:58:00.000-08:00

Haven been blogging for some time le. lol

Change is the only constant.. think Hard.

Seems like one thing has been true all along, you don't really know what you got till it's gone.

It's because of past experiences that we grow up... so how much more do we have to face?

Sometimes people say that things are better left unsaid.. and people might be happier if they didn't know of certain thing.. but is it really better to just try to forget.. I need to learn how.
Trapped in somewhere i don't even know. It's all in the mind they say..

Selfless to others is selfish to yourself.

Nothing last forever

sometimes are that simple while some are not.

Things are really different when we grow up.

No more spoon feeding, on your 2 feet, go through this journey call 'life'
Some people come and go, some stayed for a little longer.. some have motives, some are just naive. Some come armed with weapon to give a stab, while some are always ready to be the medic. What are you then?

Tip of the iceberg, i guess this is also applicable to how much human show their true self to others sometimes. Many times, we've been going in rounds trying to know a certain someone better.. Ironic Isn't it.

2007-02-28T05:31:00.000-08:00

Blog is a dangerous.

2007-02-20T02:57:00.000-08:00

我决定用华文写这篇blog.
呵呵呵。。。

跟你们分享一首歌

盛夏光年
词曲:阿信
演唱:五月天
五月天-盛夏光年
我骄傲的破坏
我痛恨的平凡
才想起那些是我最爱

让盛夏去贪玩
把残酷的未来
狂放到光年外(而现在)

放弃规则
放纵去爱
放肆自己
放空未来
我不转弯我不转弯

让定律更简单
让秩序更混乱
这样的青春我才喜欢

我要我疯我要我爱就是
我要我疯我要我爱现在
一万首的mp3一万次疯狂的爱灭不了一个渺小的孤单
盛夏的一场狂欢来到了光年之外长大难道是人必经的溃烂
我不转弯我不转弯wo……

有一场游戏叫做爱情
没人对或错
靠自己的直觉吧。。。

2007-02-18T07:33:00.000-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year!!
How's the 1st day of new year people?!
Good Harvest??

=) For me.. every year's almost the same.. have so many places to go to.. Bai Nian.. exchange mandarin oranges.. collect ang baos =)
I remember when i was small.. i used to be afraid of the new year.. cos have to go lots of places.. used to be 7 in the past.. but now cut down to 5 le.. morning went to Si Beh Lor bai shen.. mUhaHAha.. so many people, crowded.. the only thing to worry about is whether the incense from the person behind you will drop to ur hair or shirt.. Then the funny thing is that when you finally get to the Xiang Lu and have the opportunity to place the joss stick nicely into the "Lu".. the very nice person takes it out and put them in some water container.. yups, thats their job to make sure everything is safe.. no fire and stuff.. so when my sis tried to put the joss stick inside.. hers was taken away even before it could go in.. HAHAHa..
Well anyway.. i was juz trying to say today's a tiring day..

I've got the hint.. really.. and i felt it too.

2007-02-10T06:48:00.000-08:00

遗失的美好

张韶涵

海的思念绵延不绝终于和天在地平线交会爱如果走得够远应该也会跟幸福相见

承诺常常很像蝴蝶美丽的飞盘旋然后不见但我相信你给我的誓言就像一定会来的春天

我始终带着你爱的微笑一路上寻找我遗失的美好不小心当泪滑嘴角就用你握过的手抹掉

再多的风景也从不停靠只一心寻找我遗失的美好有的人说不清哪里好但就是谁都替代不了

在最开始的那一秒有些事早已经注定要到老虽然命运爱开玩笑真心会和真心遇到

was juz looking at the Thai Trip photos.. was feeling so.. haha.. i dunno how to say.. people are so happy in the photos and video.. smile!

Had exchange wif SAJC today.. was conducted by someone who rejected me though... LOL
Oh well.. dun reali care bout that now. =)
When there's a will there's a way.. always believe in this even though life might seem to be the lowest for you. cos when you're at ur lowest.. the only way it wil turn out is better.. so do see the light... believe in it..
I believe in you.. NYJC band =)

I saw everything.. and i guess it started out from then too...

2007-02-06T03:47:00.000-08:00

i guess i'm still trapped in that small lil cage of mine since yrs ago.. not that i locked myself in.. but more of you nt opening the door..

2007-02-01T06:12:00.000-08:00

I lost to myself.. i'm defeated by myself.. damn..

human's worse enemy.. yourself.

2007-01-29T04:06:00.000-08:00

wow.. this entry is going to be kinda random.. so if u dun understand what i'm trying to say.. juz ignore me..=)

Juz read the papers about the death of the Taiwan celebrity Xu Wei Lun. Oh man.. wad a way to die.. she's like so young.. was reaading about how she died and the whole process of the accident.. gosh.. dam tragic la.. she's young.. pretty.. attractive.. but i guess it's the end for now.. look.. no one is superhuman.. comics show that.. tv shows that.. but how true can it be.. celebrity they might be.. but they still are normal human like u and i.. no difference.. absolutely no difference..

Juz how vulnerable the human can be?
Everything's juz so unpredictable.. one moment you might be talking to one person.. and the next? you might be waiting outside some operation rooms.. and before you know it.. thats the last time you're going to see the person.. sounds as if i was trying to say that these kind of stuff happen everyday?? haha..that might nt happen.. BUT.. Dun ever wait till that time really come and the same's going to happen.. that would juz be way too sad..way way.. so please..
Cherish everyone around you.. for they have made u who you are now..

i can see that day coming.. i reali dun wan to think that way.. but i guess... it's realli coming..
I'm not prepared.

2007-01-20T04:08:00.000-08:00

Juz came home..
Today band is kinda fun.. tink we sounded not that bad at the parade ground.. let's make Wed a good one.. show them wad we've got! =)

Have been seeing too many stuff on the way back..
while i was waiting for a bus at the bus stop..
i saw this uncle.. he looked just like any other ordinary uncle..
but when i looked down.. i realised that he had his left leg amputated already..
n it has been replaced by the mechanical one.. the one like terry fox..
i din know how to react.. even though there was no need to be one..

The bus came n i boarded it..
crowded as always.. i just try to move in to the back of the bus..
then i saw this wonderful family..
if u rmb this family featured on the tv.. about these parents are deaf and mute.. and they had a small lil cute daughter..
yups.. they stay at my block.. so they were juz communicating through sign language.. which is something quite uncommon in our society.. i tink that their daughter is only like Pri 1 or 2? and she understands everything that they are saying..
when i looked at the people around me.. they were also carrying this smile on their face..
i tink juz by looking at how happy the parents were and the reaction of their daughter is simply happiness.. that pure innocent look on her face.. and how understanding she were.. that's juz beyond description..

after that when we finally got to our block.. we all went into the same lift.. the lift seems to not work properly.. the moment it closes.. it opens up again.. so we were like trying to get the door close and go up.. lol.. den the father was juz telling me to hold the DC button so that it can close.. lol.. but oh well.. it din work anyway.. so we went into another lift that came at the right time.. den when we got out of the lift and headed different direction.. we waved good bye to each other.. n u can juz see the amount of enthusiasm they showed.. even if they did not know you..
so when i was walking.. something striked me.. even though they cant talk.. or hear..

they communicate so much better as compared to the rest of the people around.. like.. people who can talk normally.. cant even express themselves as well as them..
i guess.. the heart reali hears what we cant.. and sees what we cant.. lastly.. touch the heart of others...

Everything's so unstable now.. wad to do..

Share wif u guys a song..
The link to the song.. nice.. although they look kinda funny when they sing.. it's still dam good.. if u wan the song.. juz let me know.. =)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Q_pjkuX7lA

I Believe In You (Duet with Celine Dion) Lyrics

Lonely the path you have chosen
A restless road, no turning back
One day you will find your light again
Don't you know
Don't let go be strong

Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe I believe I believe in you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you cannot do
I believe I believe I believe in you

Tout seul tu t'en iras tout seul
Coeur ouvert à l'univers
Poursuis ta quête
Sans regarder derrière
N'attends pas
Que le jour se lève

Suis ton étoile
Vas jusqu'où ton rêve t'emporte
Un jour tu le toucheras
Si tu crois
Si tu crois
Si tu crois en toi

Suis ta lumière
N'éteins pas la flamme que tu portes
Au fond de toi souviens toi
Que je crois
Que je crois
Que je crois en toi

Someday I'll find you
Someday you'll find me too
And when I hold you close
I know that it's true

Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe I believe I believe in you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you cannot do
I believe I believe I believe in you

2007-01-17T07:15:00.000-08:00

something is wrong..
i wish to find out what it is..
but i dont seem to want to know the answer..

blah blah..

2007-01-11T07:45:00.000-08:00

Once again.. i'm not doing homework again.. LOL. haha..share with u guys this kinda lame but freakin funny videos.. http://www.collegesage.com got the idea from Final Fantasy. Kinda like the spoof version... but it's reali freakin funny.. do watch it =)

Maybe it's just a clash of timing.. when I just realised.. you had to leave.. not literally.. but maybe i cant talk to you anymore not because you're not there.. but you're not meant to be there for me..

You've showed concern.. but i guess that's just your normal self
I appeared at the wrong timing..
Everything seem wrong..

I guess this is it..

破碎的心似乎停止了全世界。。。
你不是我的，从来也不是未来也很难吧。。。
欣慰的是。。你不属于我。。
别担心。。时间会让这些成为过去。。。。。

2007-01-07T05:38:00.000-08:00

dang.. like not in the mood to update or anything.. sorry wc. lol new year didn't start out as great as i tink it would be.. but nonetheless.. still have to go through the days isn't it and it seems that not onli me who felt this way.. oh well

wad do u consider as happiness?
Earning ur first 1 Million dollars?
Getting the 5Cs in Singapore?
Getting top in class?
Being your own boss?

A successful man might not be a happy one

Everyday's a new day
Everyday something different's gonna happen

Am i juz trying to be a nice person?
Or am i simply a pleaser
aiyah dunno la
lol
mayb that's the way i am

2006-12-31T05:39:00.000-08:00

Woot! it's one day before a new year! a real new year! And this year would be the most hectic year of my life i guess.. wif big examinations, Syf coming together.. sounds like Sec 4.. but this is definitely worse.. but this is a good time for me to 'grow up'.. not literally though.. more of mentally ba.. 'mental skill training' Lol..

The year started out as a time for me to move on with my life.. now a bigger step.. from primary school to secondary school.. and now.. to a higher level of education.. as we grow up, we are forced to be more mature.. only to comply to the current society whereby certificate is everything.. ok, maybe almost everything..

And as i moved on, i saw many other different types of people.. some of whom are fun and enjoyable to be with.. some of whom are like frozen flame.. some of whom simply nice.. and many others..

all i can say now is that.. i'm still not prepared for the up coming year and events.. but no matter wad.. still have to pull through it... yups!

To Nyjc Band: Hey guys! Next year will be the most important part of our JC life i guess.. other than the big A.. it's the SYF.. it will be a chance for us to show what we are made of and to prove those who din believe in us. With all the stuff going on.. homework.. tests.. the anniversary.. it's gonna be difficult.. real tough... but i know we can all pull through it.. We will pull thorugh it! =)

2006-12-11T06:37:00.000-08:00

things sure have changed..
I used to look up to you so much
n I still do
but i guess things aren't the same anymore.
i tot we could talk.
we could, but it was not my kind of talk

time could be arranged
but i avoided it
not because i dun wan to see you
but cos i dun wan to see the "now" you
i wun know wad to say to you now

I am
I'm intimidated by you
so many things to say yet
i juz dun wan to say
cos things wun change
you're juz like that
and i gna accept it
and do nothing

2006-12-09T09:15:00.000-08:00

found this cool website where you can 'design' your own snowflakes.. go try it out.. i made alot of them le.. lol fun!http://snowflakes.lookandfeel.com/

2006-12-03T05:38:00.000-08:00

Things hasn't been too good these few days.
But ohwell.. when have it even been very good anyways lol

Was just packing sorting some stuff in the com.. ima super lazy n messy person lol
den came across this document which din have the chance to read through it..
N now that i did
I saw what was going on..

Everyone is just like a free and easy kite flying in the sky..
but sometimes.. if we hold the kite too tightly..
the firmer we hold.. it only shows that we care more for it..
if the string snaps.. there goes the kite..bye..
but sometimes.. when we tot the wind wasn't that strong.. we juz leave it flying..
when we realise that it's gone.. it's just too late..
Humans are way too contradicting at times.. sometimes we juz get caught in our own world
Mayb we should juz always put others before ourselves..
Den we would be taken for granted in the end.. isnt it..
oh well..back to that same sentence..
If we cant change something.. like in this case.. the way people think.. we should juz accept it huh..

thai trip in 2 weeks time.. JIA yoU Everyone!!

2006-11-22T05:08:00.000-08:00

Maybe the process is not as important in current society.
The process is for self-evaluation, what other people really wan to see the the product.. no matter how shitty the whole process of getting something done, it's the product that our superiors wanna c.. sounds cruel n materialistic.. but i guess that's how some of the powerful cooperations work..

As i sat quietly listening to everything around me,
i was overwhelmed by every story that everyone have to say.
The world would be such a nicer place to be in if everyone could just listen to each other a little more.. just a little.. hope that's not too much to ask for
It's human nature to be self-centered.. it's just the degree of how much
We control our thinking and actions
We are suppose to be masters of our own body
But we still lose ourselves to our own negative thinking and we reflect that in our actions..
These are things we know it very well ourselves.. but when people get depressed.. we juz dun reali wan care about the other things around us..mayb not all the time.. but most of the time i tink..

made a banner today.. lol din reali help much though..wonder how things will turn out.. haha.. oh well.. no matter what.. it's still gna come.. n it'll will end.. so.. juz do it! lol

2006-11-16T04:50:00.000-08:00

i hav so much to say yet i dunno if they should be said or not..
i hav so much to say i dunno wad will be the consequences if i say..
i hav so much to say i cant remember wad i wanted to say..
i hav so much to say tat i'm too tired to say..

having hols now.. suppose to feel more relaxed than normal sch days..but that doesn't seem to be the case.. why do i see things happenning but there seems to be nothing to be done?

back to my old phrase.. when things cant be changed.. we can onli accept it.. it might juz make a person to accept things as the way they are even without thinking of changing it..dam..
humans r so contradicting.. sometimes when we tel ourselves what we're going to next.. we set our mind on it.. like when u see a person.. u tell urself not to behave this way.. but when the time reali comes.. we still succumb to our inner self.. dam..

my blog's getting too heavy hearted.. lol.. people tend to remember the bad times but nt the happy moments? that's nt true though.. if we think hard enough.. the fragments of happy times will still appear.. haha..

goin for ltc next week..wonder how things will turn out to be.. oh well! haha..

2006-11-14T05:39:00.000-08:00

Dam cool =) the man himself playin too..

2006-11-06T06:36:00.000-08:00

Went to school today to pass the key n went to Far east to check out the prices for the t shirt designs.. hmm.. kinda ex actualli.. gona try to find more quotations.. yups.. went wif yx.. i settled my lunch for one spring roll and one curry puff.. muahaha.. a meal less than 2 bucks =) not reali hungry too.. wonder why. lol, oh yeah.. den we walked to the mrt station n took the train to sim lim square, which is some where near little india. Muahaha.. yuxi wanna buy his route-ter.. ahahah... joking joking... yea.. den we were juz roaming in the shop while he tries to decide on which one to buy. ahaha.. decision making in process.. den went to meet yd for his dinner.. lol.. i wanna play FF12.. dang.. i din even play FF10..!@##$%^&^%$#@%&*&^^%$$#@#@^&..

Realised that we humans copy one another in our actions to be accepted by each other.. sounds ironic.. but i tink it's true.. we hav to leave our true self somewhere while we put on a mask outside.. not tat it's being hypocrite.. but i guess that's how humans behave.
No one wans to be left alone
No one wans to be ignored
yup.. no one..
so in the end.. you have people using one another.. you'll have cases of jealousy, unpleasant-ness and..everything else.. lol

I guess the impact i made on you wasnt as great as someone else.. lol
but wad can i do other than to accept the things the way they are now
time will never reverse.. likewise for the things we have done
you seem to hav moved on.. but mayb i nv did..
i like my mask
it keeps me away from reality
stop running away i tell myself
but i juz cant get the mask off
or is this juz another wall of distrust
i hav no idea =)

who cares man.. lol.. tried doing maclaurin! n i'm stuck at qus 2... ahahaha.. sian..

2006-11-04T20:32:00.000-08:00

I din know i can b so useful at times =) thanks alot

2006-11-02T06:00:00.000-08:00

ooo.. tml's the chinese A level paper le.. dun reali feel like studying also.. lol.. read through some chim chim phrases.. dunno if can remember them tml also.. oh well..

Christina Aguilera's Hurt

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there

Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, oooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, ohh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

oh yea.. n we've got our 3rd syf piece.. lol.. i mean try out piece.. Sinfonia Nobilissima..can go sound click to check it out.. brasses parts r like dam high ba.. i've got to work on my flute sound.. it's gettin more n more lau hong.. dam.. mouth too big.. LOL.. haha..

ah.. i'm so sian lol

2006-10-20T09:22:00.000-07:00

Where have you been
the one who smiles even in the darkest storms
the one who brings joy not to himself but to everyone around him
the one who share, care for everyone he sees

At times when things weren't going too well
when obstacles didn't seem to stop coming
when clouds covered the azure sky
when the future seems unclear

You were there to give a helping hand
to give a listening ear
to give a piece of advice
to lighten the loads of others

where have you been to

times changed and i guessed that includes you as well
how i wish you were back here

How do you help a faithless person
How do you fix a broken heart
How do you amend a broken bridge
How do you break the wall of distrust
How do you...

2006-10-14T07:14:00.000-07:00

A nice chinese song by 南拳妈妈

If cant read this.. please go to 'View' --> 'Encoding' --> 'Unicode'

破晓

旭日击破黑夜破浪而出
没光芒如弓支支划破沉默的天穹
而你静静挽着我抑郁的双手
试图迎风而弹面海而奏
看着大人们为了生存而决斗
回头却触不及生命最终的丰硕
我看着不战而栗的那个我
黑白键上的双手开始颤抖

日晷东方滚烫意志正在酝酿
哪道光芒才是我们该遵循的方向
信念又一分一秒崩塌
粉碎边缘陪伴我的会是你还是他
落叶不停盘旋冷锋不停的吹
勇气卡住喉头使我决毅奋力不悔
静静闭上眼睛倾听心底声音
秉着弱势的勇气因为没有输的权利

窗棂旁
泪光柔和了骄阳
琴声正咀嚼着伤
而我在等待破晓的曙光
当凯旋曲开始悠扬
旭日从东方破浪
颔首期待我有一双硬肩膀

现在的我到底又在想些什么呢？

i have no idea what happened to my tagboard though.. gonna make new one.. haha.

2006-10-07T09:48:00.000-07:00

Haze is reali bad i guess.. was juz like genting when i woke up today morning at 730.. cool huh... nooOooO.. it felt as if the throat was always occupied by something, making it dry and itchy at times..argh.. this reali shows that pollution have no boundaries! It damages the country around too.. juz like smoking.. now u see the need for the smoking area at coffee shops and anywhere.. to save those who detest smoke n stuff.. they're innocent n hav to put up wif all this nonsense..dam...

oh well.. today finalli had band after such a long break.. but argh.. stupid haze.. got some of the members sick le.. stupid.. so everyone.. please take care.. drink more water to clear throat.. and to get the so-called poisonous substance out of ur body and b healthy.. -.-II.. yeah? try to stay home at the same time... if wan go out den bring oxygen tank or get a face mask ba..the kind that can cover the whole face de.. literally.. den can protect the face from external dust and stuff..imagine the amount of particles we breathe in la.. haha.. hope it rains too.. den the first 15 mins of the rain stay indoor.. cos most polluted ma.. den corroding.. ah wad rubbish i talkin.. lol

went to watch you,me and dupree...din reali like it at first.. but was ok after that ba.. haha.. the movie had this guy who cant reali play sports.. then he was like.."I'm from the orchestra.." wah. kena shoot dao.. haha.. den at a later part of the movie he was showed wif a flute la.. then this is when gloria and yong de pat me and gave the" aww" thingy.. lol.. is it?? or is it something else.. but thanks ah.. LOL.. the movie's kinda nice.. especially the last part bah.. when both people were at their lowest points ba.. then dupree saves the day! lol.. then the movie played 'Fix You' by X& Y.. lyrics below..

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worthLights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you Tears stream, down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down on your face And I..
Tears stream, down your face I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face And I..
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

Had been doing alot of thinking these few days.. like alot la.. i continue blogging.. sleepin le.

2006-09-25T10:45:00.000-07:00

I have absolutely no idea why am i blogging again. Lol.. today had 6 hours of paper sia.. 3 for GP and 3 for Chi in the afternoon after that.. argh.. so draining.. well.. anyway.. chinese paper was quite funny la.. guess everyone was super tired after so much restricted blood circulation and mental torture most of the people should be perked by the last paragraph of the chinese paper..Muahah.. shall keep it as a secret..