I wonder who still visits my blog here?

whahahaha...

I really wonder if everything was necessary.

All a fascade?

Pardon my limited usage of vocabulary.


Trying sooo hard to protect. Not even knowing what i'm protecting for.

But oh well. who cares. life goes on.

Heh. Been a pretty long time since i last blogged.
Had NDP rehearsal at Marina today.
Met alot of people from all over the place.
People from BMT, Sispec, Engineers, PHS, NYJC.
Most interesting is people who find me familiar, I really think it's the common face that i have. heh heh.

Once again.

I look at this and i wonder what should i say.

Not that I have nothing to say.

But i'm thinking of the consequences if i say certain things or update about certain stuff..

therefore...




You realised u just wasted about 30s reading this useless post =)

Amusing. very

Are answers really that important ultimately?

Wow, i actually blogged after such a long time.

And it's not easy to make me blog again.

I assure u.


where is that light i used to see, or rather...

Now i realised that was all a fascade.
Why didn't i realise earlier.

hmmm... should i laugh or be sad.
But at least it was pathetically funny.
Correct me if i'm wrong. Heh.

Wedding day!

YAY! it's wedding day! haha not mine though. will update more when i have the photos =)

anyway... hmm i cant really see the difference eh? maybe that's what puzzling me now. but oh well! no point thinking about it. HAH! WEDDING!

I realised

That, one of the reason i'm jumping into conclusion so hastily is because I have this feeling that time is running out and every moment you have is very precious.

Maybe i was wrong, not that it's bad to cherish what you hold, but it'll only give you redundant problems brought my yourself.. hmm..

Ages since i last blogged.

Many things changed.

Perspectives, emotions, values, people.

the last 4 days was off + weekend.

Went to quite a few places haha. thursday went to watch watchmen and ate at Lao Beijing. for the high tea buffet.. it's about 13 bucks! a large variety of food somemore =) go try if you have the time. bring ur parents especially.. think they might like it.

Watchmen. talking about certain issues like.. who guards the guardians?

you can start pondering after you finish reading this entry haha. Overall.. if you're going for action-pack movie, then this is the wrong choice. watch it and you'll understand why.

Then went to IT show on friday. bought a 320gb hard disk and a 8gb memory stick for PSP. hohoh. now my dissidia, dj max 2, 3 can all co-exist happily. with the additon of patapon 2. muhahahhaha.

went back to ny after that. borrowed clement's flute and played in the classroom when suddenly the new teacher-in-charge came in and started talking. haha. pretty supportive of the band i would say. would alumni be possible? i'm keeping my fingers crossed. lol.

i wonder how things will turn out from now on. Of course i'm hoping for the better =) good luck everyone, in everything you face and do. Don't lose yourself.

dangerous.

Didn't sleep alot these few days. Lol but oh well.

Went for Food tasting today. haha.. hmm... Well.. kinda interesting. first time ma. haha

Things get around pretty quickly..

I'm worried how things will turn out though. Hahaha.. let's hope for the best

School :)

WOOT!

Went back to NY today for Disco night with katrina, wh and wc. lol. I didn't even go for my own orientations'.
But not bad sia. It's actually quite fun. I only wished that i wasn't sick that time then I could have enjoyed that night. haha. but who knows? Maybe when it was that time.. things won't have been the same. lol.

The same hall.. the same floor. the same aircon.. the same digital clock. haha. Brings back memories eh?? The place we had our papers, gathered for assembly.. talk cock.. get results haha.

oh and had a nice laughing session after that at the coffee shop behind school. Katrina... MUHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA..haha.That leg hair product.. can sell eh!

Lemon tea brings back memories too...

Oh well.. today had retreat at Band..ZZZZZZZZZZ....

The past could not be changed anymore. The future awaits for you to unfold..

what's this

why dont i have control over it?

I dont know...

Quotes from ' Last Friends'

Did you know?

The reason I turn my eyes away from you,
is because I want to continue looking at you forever.

The reason I cant be that gentle with you,
is because I'm scared of losing you.

It would be good if these quiet days last forever..

If possible, forever..

Do you?

Hmm.. do you bother keeping past messages?

Maybe that's why i'm still where i am now.

hmmmm

Because

Because I understand what it means to take care of someone and being left alone by everyone else

Really?

Why do people even bother when they don't really care?

Underlying motives.

Motives that you do not want to know of.

It's tiring to console and applease people isn't it.

Then whatever for?


Kok is tired.

Nice poems to look through and think about

Was surfing through the net and found some nice literature stuff lol share with u guys.

Poems.


And Where Were You?
by Valerie

I never thought I'd see this day,
I never thought I'd feel this way,
You...a stranger to me now.
I'm left with emptiness...
I wish I knew how it could be,
That we were once so open and free.
You were like my brother..
yet so much more
I wish I would have seen what I see now before.
For, I did not and it's too late...
My friend, my lover once, is now unknown.
And what hurts the most is I now know..
What I lost.. and I'm alone.
To face a challenge life has sent,
And not a moment with you I've spent.
I hope one day I can forgive you, my friend..
I miss you....
Why did you go?


Losing A Piece Of My Soul
by Jasmine Johnston

I came to you the hour I was in pain
Looking for answers, I cried to you in vain.

I shared the many skeletons hiding in my heart,
I knew then you'd be my friend,I knew it from the start.

Troubles ran like rivers, flowing through my life,
You picked the pieces up and help me through my strife.

When home wasn't home to me no more,
You opened up your heart, and opened up the door.

We cried into night until the early morn.
We solaced each other's pain and shared our many thorns.

As time flew, the air grew thick,
I saw our friendship fading,
and my heart grew sick.
The day had arrived,

When it was time to say goodbye.
Now I sit alone,
reminiscing the past I'd blown.


Goodbye
by Rosebud

Well maybe now I should just say goodbye
You used to be my friend
But I never felt I really was yours
So maybe this is the end.
I'm different from you, all of you
Each other we've never understood
I hope that if I do tell you goodbye
That it won't be for good.
Whenever I'm mad it hurts me so bad
And you don't even care
I don't know why, I just want to cry
And someday I won't be there.
The streaks on my arm they've done me no harm
They're only made of pen
But once they are blood that turns brown like mud
They'll be there again and again.
If I'm mad at you I'll hurt myself too
But that doesn't really matter
Although when I hurt I feel like dirt
And my spirit's bruised and battered.
I do not know why it has to be so
I really wish it did not
But the way this has been going
it is basically shot.
You don't need me and we don't need we
And that's how I think I know why
These words are the ones I have to speak-
I love you, but goodbye.

Nice ah? Lol.

Kok Wey feels like 1 litre of tears. LOL

what an expression sia.

Had a funny day during PT today. supposed to only run 3 rounds but got caught by encik for laxing so ran 4 rounds instead haha. should have been 5 though =X

hmmmm...

humans need to know how to save themselves from pain.

Emotions are scary.

Very scary.