disappointed..

everything juz came back to me..i may not be the one you hoped i was..i might not have the qualities you wished i had.. i may not be the most suitable person for that..but i want you to know that i tried..i felt lost, but you din help me..things might not have turned out to be like this if there was someone else in charge of this...you ignored me.. I'm disappointed.

it's starting..

everything gonna end like how it started..everyone will be going at their own way..own path..wonder if that 1 over 4 million chance is going to be true..wonder if we would see each other again..i wonder..be strong..be strong..i used to tell myself..if i cant, at least pretend i am...7 sins...haha...wad a game><...feeling kinda lost...more of mixed feelings..i guess this is another PSLE to go..but a more mature and competitve paper.. EVERYTHING's CHANGING !!! haha...so sudden rite..i know lah..><...i juz need time to grow up and rest..

Oral...

wah..my oral skills damn..haha..literally din know what to say today..haha..oh man..O levels like this i realli die le...die at the table...haha..

i thought i was the only one...i guess nobody belongs to anybody..no any personon this earth can own another person in one way or another..we are all equal human beings living on the same piece of land called Earth, all should be treated equally..but since the born of human..we are all greedy people..we nv knew when should we stop, we often wished that the particular person could just walk to you and just give you a hug..to let you know that you are appreciated...maybe just a word will do..or even a gesture..dun understand why muz you keep me in the dark all these while...i cant do anything anyway...i'll try to be the same..just the same old me..irritating..senseless..lame me..maybe keeping things as simple as this would be fine..dont you think so?

haha...i'm literally crapping lah...another plot of mine...heh heh

now u heh heh...

haha...felt like a copycat lah...was juz browsing the blogs of others..haha..realised that many changed skin already...i also want to shed them off(skin) so changed too...nice?? mysterious rite...just like...whahaa..complete the sentence urself..

feel like a puppet...i would be there...always serving you...did you even smiled and said a thank you? you walked away..dun ever take things for granted....you might not know whether the girl walking would ever turn back anymore...A picture speaks a thousand words...doesnt my expression said enough...what more do you want me to say...u're a liar....you thought i won't know? you're wrong... I knew right form the beginning when you started it...

YOU're LiAr

ALways hoped you were there to encourage..support me...but where were you? you always lie..never kept your words..maybe i shouldn even walk forward and talk to you in the first place..we exist in different worlds... a world which is suppose to be parallel from each other..i guess sometimes it's true that we should not know everything.. hostility...the barrier was suppose to dissolve? disintergrate? why did it form again? i had so much to say..but you...you just shut me up...closed the door on me..i get what you mean...we really should go back to where we once lived, never should we cross our paths..i guess we all look like tools to you huh...if you...

haha...nice anot...plot plot...kinda bored...heh heh...

maybe u're right..

Share with u all a song first...haha...i only remeber a short part of the song...yup yup..

Nobody knows who I really am,
I never felt so empty before..
And if i ever need someone to come along,
Who'S gonna comfort me and keep me strong...

it continues lah...but in jap..nice huh...There's so many what if in this cruel harsh world we live in...what if I studied harder for my exams, would i get what I expected in the first place? What if i said this and he wouldnt like...we tend to regret most of the things after we did them... to say or not to say...maybe acting blur is really the solution to everything...in that case, we would not be getting ourselves us into unecessary problems...is being straightforward a crime? being too straight is also a fault? if that's the case...we could not even talk to each other..since almost everything seems to be attacking u.....what i got it wrong...wished i could sing...can let the emotions run...sometimes i really wished i din know anything..maybe thingswould be soooo better...if i din met u..i wouldn't think about it..

maybe caring for a person is also a crime..a crime that isnt written in the constitution...we often hope for the reply to be the same...but most of the time...it do not... it's the total opposite..lifes'stories....listening to this great song now...wished that i could share it with u...

one more thing...i reaised friendster's getting kinda pervetted...haha...go see..

it's creeping again...

juz feel like blogging...haha...yeah...no particular reason...haha...just wanna talk to you...^^ok..that's crap..haha..
been doing lots of thinking these few days...and lots of stuff kinda happened too...everything's karma...isn't it..i strongly believe that kinda stuff exist. Do want you want others to do to you. Most of the time we show or we try to show the side of us, being strong, invulnerable, independent. However, deep somewhere in us, we longed for somebody to be on this journey with us...now i sound like desperate housewife...haha..ooh man..the Maryalice...haha. We often longed for a companion..when we get desperate..anybody will do, often to just be by our sides and share our problems...

When conflicts occur, most of the time we din even realise that it did...why? cause it's a battle between the hearts of people...yy always say...simplicity is beautiful...but how do we achieve that?? We often complicate things ourself by thinking too much...but how about for people who can only think but nothing else?? I'm losing my point...no wonder i cant score in composition...haha..

When we hurt someone, we often did not realise the cut that we made on others...how aggresive and vulnerable someone can be huh...the cut would slowly deepens itself. Unknowingly, we start to think and think..making a simple draft to become a cruel reality...i lost i again...ohwell...wad i just wanna say is... we humans are weird creatures...most of the time we got what we wanted...but what happens next? we start to get panic of losing that somebody..that's whn things got a u turn...people walk in and out of our life..but who are the ones who stays?? None..what's so special is the impact that each and everyone had brought to us...

I think i need some more time to grow up...haha...give me more time...