it's all karma..isn't it..wonder when are all things gonna stop..got a feeling tomolo's gonna be a bad day..my senses seem to be quite true...cfg

Is it my bad memory or what. I cant seem to remember when is the last time we really talked..everything seem so foggy to me now. I wished my sixth sense wasnt that sensitive..why is it that everything i expected all came true..i wished i didnt care so much..

Illusion

illusion..an image that looks as if it's real, but maybe it never existed. Something which we wished so deeply for, waiting to get them in our hands.. or they also can be the screenshots of what is about to happen next...there are many kinds of illusion..they all can mean different stuff...but one thing that is sure is that.. they show the deepest thoughts in our mind..be it good or bad..for the good of others or for the benefit of one's self..they reflect our inner self..

i also thought i could hide it at the corner of my eye..treat it as nothing had happened...or as if it never occured before..that the hole, now filled was one of your master piece on me..heard this today..since kids can be satisfied juz by a tiny weenie little sweet, which to them it seems like a delicacy..why cant we, be as distilled as them..isnt that the real joy of life? other than the materialism and fakeness tha everyone seems to mask themselves under, trying to potray the image that i am perfect..but if friends were true..wouldn't they look through your flaws.. true friends speaks the truth from the bottom of their hearts..people miht get hurt in the process..but isn't that a virtue? being truthful...

I always thought of you being someone who i could rely upon..but i shuld have guessed it..we all have our own lives..own things to manage with.. cope with..times might not be a good as the past..oh well..things change..cya..

oral..

it's finally here...well over already too...really feel sick now..i understand wad's karma already...totally...bit my tongue while eating juz now..lotsa blood...wad a shitty day...oral was quite ok...as compared to the friday one..haha..thanks..that realli helped.. now i know why i was called stupid last time...i totally understand now...nose cant stop drooling..i forgot wad's the word..like got SARS lidat.. dun realli feel like going school tomolo..it's nobody's fault...so what am i suppose to do...stare in blankness and act blur..ahh..i tired.. getting realli blunt these days..wasn't like this last time..and it kinda hurt..am i juz asking too much or wad..hmmm...i wished....