Woot! just uploaded a song on this blog.

I'm not realli studying.. not that i dont want to, but more of i cant find the motivation to do so. I know that getting good grades for As are impt. It's like we know all these. but we just lack the motivation to do so. DAMN. It feels so different from last time.

I'll still try to study though.. cant just sit there and do nothing.. I need to find it..

Woot! heh heh.. haven been blogging recently again..opps.. hahahaha.. i'm obessed with Nodame Cantabile!

Its a jap series that originated from the anime. Talks about orchestra playing.. the emotions that musicians have.. and some sparks of love that were created.. the story line is cool. and you can just tell how much effort they have put in to make it look very similar to the original anime/ manga version.. i just love the way the female lead actress present herself.. She's dam cute in the show! just 3 years older?! that's 21 only! oooooo... lol and the more amazing thing is.. she starred in SWING GIRLS as the tenor saxophone player!!

I tink she's dam cool! and she changed alot too! she's became more mature le.. lol took me quite a while to realise who she was.. It's good!! =) Think she was.. 19 or 18 when they filmed this movie... AHHHH.. NODAME.. =)

Pretty =) hehahah...

The lead actor Hiroshi Tamaki also dam cool! woot! Idol! hahaha..

this show made me think.. =)

Been studying these few days.. and as usual thinking about loads of stuff the power of love.

We've become so wary of what we speak that we stopped saying anything truthful anymore..

I'll wait.. for that to happen.. wait wait..

If you have the time, please do watch Nodame Cantabile! =)

For more information on this show.. you can visit liying's blog! she's got more explicit information.. sorry to use the same picture though.. lol.. but i tink it's the best out of all =)

Study hard people!

ROAR!

juz wanna share something today.
haha.

Is there really something call fairness in this world?
Equality? Think not.
Many times in life we put in alot of of effort trying to get attention from a particular someone. however, in the end, what we received is nothing.. well, maybe it's my own fault for expecting too much, or juz hoping that people can reciprocate.. but that's juz the ideal situation ba.. i guess i've realli been expecting too much.. if i din maybe i would feel much better? but that would also mean that i would be more aimless than before.. do i sound emo? i don't know. there has been too many restrictions for me to show my true self. Well, at least i can hide them when i want to.. and i do it pretty well i guess.. would this allow me to surviv in the society? shit. thinking too much again. haha.

说长不长说短不短，

In our lives, there are people who leave their footprints at some point of our life.. however, are there realli people who stepped in and never left? how difficult would that be huh..
sometimes, our actions dont seem to be appreciated by others.. so how should we react to them then? Or due to certain events, time have cruelly dilute the relationships between people.. sad. but it's true..

I'm still waiting.. waiting for that one to appear.. knowing how to put things down is different from keeping them some where in your heart and hoping that it would disappear somehow..

Lol i tink soon people wun wan to read my blog cos it's getting difficult to understand.. with that lousy ang moh of mine.. lol i should try blogging in chinese then..

ok anyway.. juz felt like doing so.. this is the add for my old blog.. i saw how i grew up. lol. read if u're real bored. http://ahkok.easyjournal.com/

And another Poem

Everyday,we awaken with another chance at Life.
Sometimes we forgot how lucky we are and often forget
to appreciate the little things around us, that mean so much
Here's a poem I wish to share with all of you
Thank you for being a part of this wonderful group......

Too often we don't realize
what we have until it is gone;
Too often we wait too late to say
"I'm sorry- I was wrong."
Sometimes it seems we hurt the ones
we hold dearest to our hearts;
And we allow foolish things
to tear our lifes apart

Far too many things we let
unimportant things get into our minds;
And then it's usually too late
to see what made us blind.

So be sure to let people know
how much they mean to you;
Take that time to say the words
before that time is through.

Be sure that you appreciate
everything you've got
And be thankful for the little things
in life that mean alot.

This whole thing juz sucks.

I'll do what i'm best at.

Shant think.

Keep moving and i wont have time to think of the hard facts.

ZzzZzZZZZZzzZZzz...
what's the point of thinking about it
no use going so far..
or am i just expecting too much.

The more you expect, the higher you'll fall.
OUCH.
I felt it.
Truely.

Phew, ok i shall blog now.
After many thousands of attempts to blog my thoughts out and clicking the red button at the top right hand corner of the screen.
LOL

Ok and i just realised that way i blog is different now.
Somewhat different ba.. haha
Now i'm realli like blogging once every month.. summarise all my thoughts into one small post. How is that ever possible anyway..

Anyway..

Nanyang Junior College's Symphonic Band

SYF 2007

GOLD AWARD

yay!! 1st gold in dunno how many donkey years.. LOL 30?? not that sure.. but the fact is that NYJC band has gotten gold.. just dunno how ancient was that.. but anyway..

I'm very proud of everyone who have been through this whole journey with the band together

to be there for each other

listening for one another

Well, in a group of people working.

Not all have the common goal in their mind

We cant force people to have the same mind set, mentality

As the words suggest, it all have to do with the mind..

What we can only do is to influence

Influence..

No point forcing

Since it's not sincere in anyway

=)

I'm getting lousier

Seriously.. i seem to not be able to talk as well as i did last time.. even if compared to primary sch times, i used to be sooo good at cheering ppl up(self-proclaimed)... oh well! what happened? o.o

I'm not that good in talking anymore, i know it.

However, talking to people is one of the greatest joy in my life

Letting them know that i'm there..

Once again, I'm starting to think that i'm a superman.LOL

Cos in reality, that's not going to happen.

As much as i want that to happen..

I'm human myself too.. how? dunno. haha

Time is just as cruel as how everyone talks about it.

sounds cliche but.. it's true how fast it ticks like no body's business and shock you in the end how everything is over. Dam u time! Dam uuuuuuuu.. (fades off)

Why am i stil being affected by that which happened 4 years ago?
All these while.. nothing was done..
BaH.. i've lost. Lost to the environment.

Have been pretty quiet lately.
Like just quiet..
Not as if i don't talk anymore.
But more of.. i don't talk about it anymore.. not that i can remember of anytime which i did..

Maybe that's why i tink i've grown, either that or i'm turing into a zombie.
I feel heavy.. real heavy.

BUT i'm still gonna jia you for the next one week.. It's juz gna be this one week before everything ends.. well.. i realli have been juz tinking about SYF that i've forgotten about the fact that we'll step down very soon after SYF.

This one yr.. is happening in a way to me.
Everyone have their own stories to tell.. their own parts and parcel of life.. how this one yr worked for them..no matter what.. it's gna end soon.. real soon.. it's been too fast to actually slow down and think properly what happened in this yr..

I have so much to say... but you juz aren't listening.. or is it that we speak different language now..

I've finally blogged after one month. Lol

Time flies.. no matter how many times i've said this.. i still think.. it flies.. way too fast for me to handle.

Shall talk about band first.

11 days to SYF.

The big day and final chance of SYF to most of us.

The day where we are suppose to do our best, to the most of our ability, standing up, walking out of the conference hall with no regrets, knowing that, 'i've done my best'.

There are definitely hard work that people have put in this preparation.

This race will soon come to an end, whether we win it anot.. it's a different story.

But it's the process.. the amt of work.. the amt of maturity.. the amt of trust and encouragement that we give each other..

Many times in life.. Amt of time spend might be equates to the quality of product.. but why?

Not everything is of a 100% efficiency, in life we give and take.. the only way to do this is to give in our very best.. and i really mean VERY BEST.

It wouldn't be in any case fair if onli a portion of the people work hard.. this is a race.. a race where each and everyone run together, hand in hand, juz to reach the final destination. Be it we win the race anot.

Many times.. the solution is already there.. we know what we should be doing.. just that we are not putting in the effort to do it. Serious! we know at this particular point.. we'll go flat.. sharp or whatsoever.. juz that little more effort to make it sound so much better.. but some of us just aren't doing it..y? Practices might be a little more taxing and tiring nowadays.. but i'm sure it's worth it everyone put in the effort. I'm sure many at times we hear how the band sounds better we would definitely be much motivated to play..Think about it.

Another point that i want to talk about it this.. until a few weeks ago.. after what Mr Tan said, i realised that i was also too "medal-minded".. all before that.. all i tink was to get the gold get the gold.. but isn't music making all about enjoying it? By tinking juz about the gold.. it will not get us anywhere.. only when we want to do it, we will get it.

enjoy the process.. enjoy the music.. enjoy ur life.. NYJCSB! Walk out with our heads high! Not being arrogant, but simply we did our best!

Many days when i want to blog, after typing a few sentences.
I decided to stop and juz close the window.
Reason? I'm thinking of people's reaction after reading my blog entries and i juz stopped.

I'm realli not that good wif my words when it comes to consoling people anymore as compared to me when i was younger.. say primary sch that time?

Yea, maybe things weren't that complicated that time? Things were as simple as A,B, C. Literally. How easy it is to bring a smile to a small young kid.. juz give him a sweet, or making funny faces at them, and they'll smile/ laugh at you... just that simple.

But now, there are many other factors that we need to consider when we talk to other people.. many many others.. So many that i dont know when this entry will end at.

Sometimes i tink people might juz tink that i'm blind or something.. i dont dare to say that i see alot of things.. but i can only say that sometimes i realli wished i was blind.

Read junwei's blog.. dang.. his poems are all dam nice. super meaningful and.. chim lol..

Maybe i might juz stop blogging soon.
At least i wont tink so much about how people will feel when they read my blog. =)

Juz came back from sch and had my dinner.

Sometimes we really hate ourselves for doing somethings, even at times for not doing some things. For reacting the way to others.. sometimes, some people dun give a damn how they treat others, as long as they're happy, that's fine. On the contrary, there are also people who will be there for you, but in the end, you took them for granted and when all is lost, it's too late to do anything. I'm not being emo or anything, just want to do some reflection and thinking about life.

Go watch this Video.

Bringing you, ''The Truth Is".

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yNyz5vrI3e0

Everywhere I look, I turn, it seems that you are there

Everyone I leave, I learn that they cannot compare

Everything I see, I do, I touch, I think of you

Every little thing in life

It leaves me so confused

Oh, everything was so, so clear before we tore apart

Now all my passion's trapped inside

This lonely broken heart

So if you ask, if you must know

I'll tell you, here's the truth

If you ask, if you must know

I wouldn't lie to you

If you ask, if you must know

I'll tell you, here's the truth

Do I love you? Love you, still?

The truth is...I do

Now without you here, the sky turned a new shade of clear

A new rain of tears

And without you here, my body's a lonely frontier

An ocean of fears

So if you ask, if you must know

I'll tell you, here's the truth

If you ask, if you must know

I wouldn't lie to you

If you ask, if you must know

I'll tell you, here's the truth

Do I love you? Love you, still?

The truth is...I do

I definitely love the verse in green, it's so good. =)

The Past's over, the Future's coming and the Present's for us to control.

I'm so mesmerised by the music, lyrics and in fact everything.I juz find it so complete.

Study HArd people!=)

Happy 18th Bday Gloria! =) Smile!! =)

Let all these be snowflakes..
Slowly they descend from the sky.. letting you see how fragile it is
Then for you to feel it, touch it, admire it and slowly.. it fades away.. leaving no traces behind.

Changes has to be done..

BE GONE EARTHLING~ That's wad my sis calls me. Earthling =)

Haven been blogging for some time le. lol

Change is the only constant.. think Hard.

Seems like one thing has been true all along, you don't really know what you got till it's gone.

It's because of past experiences that we grow up... so how much more do we have to face?

Sometimes people say that things are better left unsaid.. and people might be happier if they didn't know of certain thing.. but is it really better to just try to forget.. I need to learn how.
Trapped in somewhere i don't even know. It's all in the mind they say..

Selfless to others is selfish to yourself.

Nothing last forever

sometimes are that simple while some are not.

Things are really different when we grow up.

No more spoon feeding, on your 2 feet, go through this journey call 'life'
Some people come and go, some stayed for a little longer.. some have motives, some are just naive. Some come armed with weapon to give a stab, while some are always ready to be the medic. What are you then?

Tip of the iceberg, i guess this is also applicable to how much human show their true self to others sometimes. Many times, we've been going in rounds trying to know a certain someone better.. Ironic Isn't it.

Blog is a dangerous.

我决定用华文写这篇blog.
呵呵呵。。。

跟你们分享一首歌

盛夏光年
词曲:阿信
演唱:五月天
五月天-盛夏光年
我骄傲的破坏
我痛恨的平凡
才想起那些是我最爱

让盛夏去贪玩
把残酷的未来
狂放到光年外(而现在)

放弃规则
放纵去爱
放肆自己
放空未来
我不转弯我不转弯

让定律更简单
让秩序更混乱
这样的青春我才喜欢

我要我疯我要我爱就是
我要我疯我要我爱现在
一万首的mp3一万次疯狂的爱灭不了一个渺小的孤单
盛夏的一场狂欢来到了光年之外长大难道是人必经的溃烂
我不转弯我不转弯wo……



有一场游戏叫做爱情
没人对或错
靠自己的直觉吧。。。

Happy Chinese New Year!!
How's the 1st day of new year people?!
Good Harvest??

=) For me.. every year's almost the same.. have so many places to go to.. Bai Nian.. exchange mandarin oranges.. collect ang baos =)
I remember when i was small.. i used to be afraid of the new year.. cos have to go lots of places.. used to be 7 in the past.. but now cut down to 5 le.. morning went to Si Beh Lor bai shen.. mUhaHAha.. so many people, crowded.. the only thing to worry about is whether the incense from the person behind you will drop to ur hair or shirt.. Then the funny thing is that when you finally get to the Xiang Lu and have the opportunity to place the joss stick nicely into the "Lu".. the very nice person takes it out and put them in some water container.. yups, thats their job to make sure everything is safe.. no fire and stuff.. so when my sis tried to put the joss stick inside.. hers was taken away even before it could go in.. HAHAHa..
Well anyway.. i was juz trying to say today's a tiring day..


I've got the hint.. really.. and i felt it too.

遗失的美好

张韶涵

海的思念绵延不绝 终于和天在地平线交会 爱如果走得够 远应该也会跟幸福相见

承诺常常很像蝴蝶 美丽的飞盘旋然后不见 但我相信你给我的誓言 就像一定会来的春天

我始终带着你爱的微笑 一路上寻找我遗失的美好 不小心当泪滑嘴角 就用你握过的手抹掉

再多的风景也从不停靠 只一心寻找我遗失的美好 有的人说不清哪里好 但就是谁都替代不了

在最开始的那一秒 有些事早已经注定要到老 虽然命运爱开玩笑 真心会和真心遇到

was juz looking at the Thai Trip photos.. was feeling so.. haha.. i dunno how to say.. people are so happy in the photos and video.. smile!

Had exchange wif SAJC today.. was conducted by someone who rejected me though... LOL
Oh well.. dun reali care bout that now. =)
When there's a will there's a way.. always believe in this even though life might seem to be the lowest for you. cos when you're at ur lowest.. the only way it wil turn out is better.. so do see the light... believe in it..
I believe in you.. NYJC band =)

I saw everything.. and i guess it started out from then too...

i guess i'm still trapped in that small lil cage of mine since yrs ago.. not that i locked myself in.. but more of you nt opening the door..

I lost to myself.. i'm defeated by myself.. damn..

human's worse enemy.. yourself.

wow.. this entry is going to be kinda random.. so if u dun understand what i'm trying to say.. juz ignore me..=)

Juz read the papers about the death of the Taiwan celebrity Xu Wei Lun. Oh man.. wad a way to die.. she's like so young.. was reaading about how she died and the whole process of the accident.. gosh.. dam tragic la.. she's young.. pretty.. attractive.. but i guess it's the end for now.. look.. no one is superhuman.. comics show that.. tv shows that.. but how true can it be.. celebrity they might be.. but they still are normal human like u and i.. no difference.. absolutely no difference..

Juz how vulnerable the human can be?
Everything's juz so unpredictable.. one moment you might be talking to one person.. and the next? you might be waiting outside some operation rooms.. and before you know it.. thats the last time you're going to see the person.. sounds as if i was trying to say that these kind of stuff happen everyday?? haha..that might nt happen.. BUT.. Dun ever wait till that time really come and the same's going to happen.. that would juz be way too sad..way way.. so please..
Cherish everyone around you.. for they have made u who you are now..

i can see that day coming.. i reali dun wan to think that way.. but i guess... it's realli coming..
I'm not prepared.

Juz came home..
Today band is kinda fun.. tink we sounded not that bad at the parade ground.. let's make Wed a good one.. show them wad we've got! =)

Have been seeing too many stuff on the way back..
while i was waiting for a bus at the bus stop..
i saw this uncle.. he looked just like any other ordinary uncle..
but when i looked down.. i realised that he had his left leg amputated already..
n it has been replaced by the mechanical one.. the one like terry fox..
i din know how to react.. even though there was no need to be one..

The bus came n i boarded it..
crowded as always.. i just try to move in to the back of the bus..
then i saw this wonderful family..
if u rmb this family featured on the tv.. about these parents are deaf and mute.. and they had a small lil cute daughter..
yups.. they stay at my block.. so they were juz communicating through sign language.. which is something quite uncommon in our society.. i tink that their daughter is only like Pri 1 or 2? and she understands everything that they are saying..
when i looked at the people around me.. they were also carrying this smile on their face..
i tink juz by looking at how happy the parents were and the reaction of their daughter is simply happiness.. that pure innocent look on her face.. and how understanding she were.. that's juz beyond description..

after that when we finally got to our block.. we all went into the same lift.. the lift seems to not work properly.. the moment it closes.. it opens up again.. so we were like trying to get the door close and go up.. lol.. den the father was juz telling me to hold the DC button so that it can close.. lol.. but oh well.. it din work anyway.. so we went into another lift that came at the right time.. den when we got out of the lift and headed different direction.. we waved good bye to each other.. n u can juz see the amount of enthusiasm they showed.. even if they did not know you..
so when i was walking.. something striked me.. even though they cant talk.. or hear..

they communicate so much better as compared to the rest of the people around.. like.. people who can talk normally.. cant even express themselves as well as them..
i guess.. the heart reali hears what we cant.. and sees what we cant.. lastly.. touch the heart of others...

Everything's so unstable now.. wad to do..

Share wif u guys a song..
The link to the song.. nice.. although they look kinda funny when they sing.. it's still dam good.. if u wan the song.. juz let me know.. =)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Q_pjkuX7lA

I Believe In You (Duet with Celine Dion) Lyrics

Lonely the path you have chosen
A restless road, no turning back
One day you will find your light again
Don't you know
Don't let go be strong

Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe I believe I believe in you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you cannot do
I believe I believe I believe in you

Tout seul tu t'en iras tout seul
Coeur ouvert à l'univers
Poursuis ta quête
Sans regarder derrière
N'attends pas
Que le jour se lève

Suis ton étoile
Vas jusqu'où ton rêve t'emporte
Un jour tu le toucheras
Si tu crois
Si tu crois
Si tu crois en toi

Suis ta lumière
N'éteins pas la flamme que tu portes
Au fond de toi souviens toi
Que je crois
Que je crois
Que je crois en toi

Someday I'll find you
Someday you'll find me too
And when I hold you close
I know that it's true

Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe I believe I believe in you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you cannot do
I believe I believe I believe in you