y is every1 so self-centered.

Qus: Is it contagious?

hurt.

Brain pronunce dead-

I got a bigger picture of what the movie "I not stupid" means. the more you say. the more i'll shut off. i mean it. I HAVE NO INTEREST IN IT. I FEEL FORCED. whatever i get. you'
ll nv be satisfied. Fine. get someone else then. I'm juz not that type of person who'll get 7 A1s. and stop comparing me wif someone else. I'm kinda unbalanced too. I feel dumb. N this always happens. wherever i wanna go. i always miss it by a few points or wadever.
stressed. everyone's gone somewhere else.

i guess it neva will b the same as b4.. all have moved on.. things sure have changed huh..suddenli felt so much different between 16 and 17 wonder why.. felt like a big leap more resposibilities.. went back to phs as alumni today. felt quite weird though.. were given a new nickname..wow..

Din blog for a long time yeh? haha. was juz reading my senior's blog on band.yeah,read so many sentences, realised that similar issues were discussed..but now,it's up to the new leaders to take charge of everything yeahh..so we'll keep quiet=)

Many things were left undone and incomplete, not to mention assumptions huh..these were the things we were best at..in a state of confusion now.The healer heals others..but what if one day the healer himself down? who heals him? the healer's healer? then it juz continues? seriously don't know the answer.. and it seems like it isn't going to be revealed..maybe sometimes questions r never meant to be answered.. or would we rather leave it in it's place and allow it to open it's mystery to us? I DONT KNOW.hmm...

Is it me who did not try hard enough to know u? or is it u who sealed urself in somewhere far and din allow me to go near? Time sure is playing trick on us..we seemed to be blinded by something..

After 'O's seem relaxing..yeah true.. it felt that it's been over for a v long time but when i looked back, i realised it's onli 2 to 3 weeks ago..well.. times sure flies huh..scary..finding a conclusion in the confusion..that's wad sz said..haha.. true huh.. i'm in no better position to reply him either..haizz..life's kinda messy..and it's worse when some weird organisms are appearing..haha. wun say too much..kk.. LIVE life to the FULLEST!

Well Well.. seriously din expect it to turn out like this..it started out as an itch. and now everyone have to go through the same thing. beware! n i wonder who passed it to me

blurred

Understood

I can fully understood wad it meant by see true friendship through a crisis (chinese translation). No matter what happened, when your friend is in trouble, even though you have to sacrifice to help that person..you would still do it? what happened to you? eveybody else came, but just not you.. and you know what? that's the worst part.. not getting the supports of your friends.. or jus half-heartedly.. You know what? What i hate most is people showing half-hearted concern.. if you rather not care..then just be it.. dun have to show that you care.. well.. i've just had another lesson on life.. If you really want to care for someone? show all your support and concern.. dont do it juz because other people just did it..that's lying and being selfish..

Maybe i was just blinded by something.i dont know. I've grown up a little bit more. Last but not least...DUN SHOW HALF-HEARTED CONCERN!!! take care...>.<

That's kinda long i realised

Haha..din blog for more than a month already..haha..time flies eh.. i was juzt thinking about the prelims..and now i'm here..after the prelims man...and so much had happened.

That was a stressful period though.. haha.. someone told me. I used to be very anxious about PSLE last time.. she said,'' you said you would die when PSLE comes.. but look at you now, you're alive and kicking!! So what's difficult about 'O' Level?" kinda makes lotsa sense, but actions weigh much heavier than words. Is that a kind of method of self-lying? Or is that a legal way of self-encourging..haha. I dont know, it's just a way of how people look at things..isnt it?

Being fortunate or not is only a perpective of how people look at things...however..love or hate is really 2 different thing..just like the 2 faces of a coin..you almost never have the chance of allowing the coin to rest on it's centre.. haha..oh well.. things are so different nowadays.. people are so different now..not so simple-minded and naive..that's something i'm learning..to grow up..

I wonder if things could go back the way they were.. or am i just pure dreaming? I have no idea.. Scars persists..but isnt that happening to everybody else too? Or is it just me whose in denial..hmmm...oh well...good luck for studies!! =))

It's all the...isnt it..

He woke up, scrutinizing at everything around him... as he walk down the stairs, he stared at the various photos being place on his tables and desks. Thinking inside, "time passes so fast.. it's been 5 years already". Suddenly, something at the coner of his eyes caught his attention.. a particular photo, inside the silvery frame stood 2 people. 2 very familar people.. taking a close step, he held the photo tightly in his hands.. flashes of the happy moments went through his mind.. he shut his eyes tightly, recalling who that person was.. listening to the music being played his room.. "fly away"..suddenly...he was back in reality..


Cant believe my sixth sense was that strong.. seriously.. they came ot to be true in the end.. people can realli change so fast man..maybe it's really time to move on.. i always wondered if i'm who i always thought i was.. or was i juz another mould created to be someone i asked to be? i dont know..seriously.. time seem to pass so slow today.. thus..went through alot of thinking today.. skeptic..but i really have a strong sixth sense..oh man.. it all seems so one sided.. maybe..or is the river flowing backwards again.. true enough..i saw it.. get back huh..i think letting go is the word

This really is sucky. It all became worse when the paper was given to the 4 of us. We looked intently at the paper, each wondering how nice it would be if we were on the bus with them. Looking smart, cool, gorgeous, pretty.. I cant believe i missed i out again. Sec 3 beginning, it wasnt mine again. Sec 3 end, it slipped through my fingers again. And now this. The day became even worse when people started telling me how nice they wore and stuff, I want to see, seriously. Every while I was doing the paper, i kept thinking about how almost everything slipped through my fingers. Did i not hold it properly? THIS SUCKS SUCKS.. felt damned empty, every second i spent writing.. it was dripping.. i'm always missing out the great stuff..and in the end trying to pretend that it's ok.. I AM NOT.. they must be enjoying now..having a fun time of their own, here i am.. stuck.. SUCKS..OH MAN.. bye

OH man..... i cant believe this i happening again.. those which i wanted all have been taken away from me...why cant i choose myself..no other selection of choices? why everything falls on the same day...i dun understand.. i wan to take a stand.. a stand which totally belongs to myself.. i'm gonna miss out everything.. something like this always happens once every year.. I WANT that...sucks... it's so depressing to try to get sumthing which i really wanted and always ended up with nothing..THIS SERIOUSLY SUCKS..i'm missing out hell lot of stuff...oh man..the more i think ..the mroe depress i get...sucks sucks

it's all karma..isn't it..wonder when are all things gonna stop..got a feeling tomolo's gonna be a bad day..my senses seem to be quite true...cfg

Is it my bad memory or what. I cant seem to remember when is the last time we really talked..everything seem so foggy to me now. I wished my sixth sense wasnt that sensitive..why is it that everything i expected all came true..i wished i didnt care so much..

Illusion

illusion..an image that looks as if it's real, but maybe it never existed. Something which we wished so deeply for, waiting to get them in our hands.. or they also can be the screenshots of what is about to happen next...there are many kinds of illusion..they all can mean different stuff...but one thing that is sure is that.. they show the deepest thoughts in our mind..be it good or bad..for the good of others or for the benefit of one's self..they reflect our inner self..

i also thought i could hide it at the corner of my eye..treat it as nothing had happened...or as if it never occured before..that the hole, now filled was one of your master piece on me..heard this today..since kids can be satisfied juz by a tiny weenie little sweet, which to them it seems like a delicacy..why cant we, be as distilled as them..isnt that the real joy of life? other than the materialism and fakeness tha everyone seems to mask themselves under, trying to potray the image that i am perfect..but if friends were true..wouldn't they look through your flaws.. true friends speaks the truth from the bottom of their hearts..people miht get hurt in the process..but isn't that a virtue? being truthful...

I always thought of you being someone who i could rely upon..but i shuld have guessed it..we all have our own lives..own things to manage with.. cope with..times might not be a good as the past..oh well..things change..cya..

oral..

it's finally here...well over already too...really feel sick now..i understand wad's karma already...totally...bit my tongue while eating juz now..lotsa blood...wad a shitty day...oral was quite ok...as compared to the friday one..haha..thanks..that realli helped.. now i know why i was called stupid last time...i totally understand now...nose cant stop drooling..i forgot wad's the word..like got SARS lidat.. dun realli feel like going school tomolo..it's nobody's fault...so what am i suppose to do...stare in blankness and act blur..ahh..i tired.. getting realli blunt these days..wasn't like this last time..and it kinda hurt..am i juz asking too much or wad..hmmm...i wished....

disappointed..

everything juz came back to me..i may not be the one you hoped i was..i might not have the qualities you wished i had.. i may not be the most suitable person for that..but i want you to know that i tried..i felt lost, but you din help me..things might not have turned out to be like this if there was someone else in charge of this...you ignored me.. I'm disappointed.

it's starting..

everything gonna end like how it started..everyone will be going at their own way..own path..wonder if that 1 over 4 million chance is going to be true..wonder if we would see each other again..i wonder..be strong..be strong..i used to tell myself..if i cant, at least pretend i am...7 sins...haha...wad a game><...feeling kinda lost...more of mixed feelings..i guess this is another PSLE to go..but a more mature and competitve paper.. EVERYTHING's CHANGING !!! haha...so sudden rite..i know lah..><...i juz need time to grow up and rest..

Oral...

wah..my oral skills damn..haha..literally din know what to say today..haha..oh man..O levels like this i realli die le...die at the table...haha..

i thought i was the only one...i guess nobody belongs to anybody..no any personon this earth can own another person in one way or another..we are all equal human beings living on the same piece of land called Earth, all should be treated equally..but since the born of human..we are all greedy people..we nv knew when should we stop, we often wished that the particular person could just walk to you and just give you a hug..to let you know that you are appreciated...maybe just a word will do..or even a gesture..dun understand why muz you keep me in the dark all these while...i cant do anything anyway...i'll try to be the same..just the same old me..irritating..senseless..lame me..maybe keeping things as simple as this would be fine..dont you think so?

haha...i'm literally crapping lah...another plot of mine...heh heh

now u heh heh...

haha...felt like a copycat lah...was juz browsing the blogs of others..haha..realised that many changed skin already...i also want to shed them off(skin) so changed too...nice?? mysterious rite...just like...whahaa..complete the sentence urself..

feel like a puppet...i would be there...always serving you...did you even smiled and said a thank you? you walked away..dun ever take things for granted....you might not know whether the girl walking would ever turn back anymore...A picture speaks a thousand words...doesnt my expression said enough...what more do you want me to say...u're a liar....you thought i won't know? you're wrong... I knew right form the beginning when you started it...