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Nothing much happening around these days
Or is there something happening? And they're of the same thing?

Just Imagine.
All everyone is a piece of artwork to be crafted
The people around us make us who we are?
So if that's the case.. I'm just a piece of old, tattered and torn piece of art piece.
On me shows a small boy, with flowers in his hands, staring blankly into space.
You thought it look kinda boring, so you decided to add some colours onto it.
Therefore.. you added paint on areas where you thought could be made better.
As time passes.. You saw more places which could be done better.. so you added... and added
and added...

At this moment.. i felt heavy. Heavy of carrying all those you have placed on me..
I felt uncomfortable. By the colours that i'm showing others. That's not me. That's your artwork
Where's the original?

It's all hidden beneath that thick layer of paint which you added.
You then ask.. where is the original paint?? That old, torn and tattered but original true piece of artwork.. it simply hid itself.. that's as simple as that.

The End.

Lol.. I've not blogged for the past 19 days.. Kinda Lag huh..
Will try to remember everything i can.

Last Last Thursday was the Band outing.. lol. went to sch in the morning at 8 plus to bring the stuff over to East Coast Park Annie's house.. yeah. she live so far la.. ahaha.. she stays in this weird condominium n guess what.. the principal of TJC stays a few floors above her la..haha.. anyways.. went for biking a while.. did the double's one.. din cycle for sOoOoOOOooO Long sia.. cycled double wif annie.. was so afraid of killing her la.. omg.. it's like asking me to sing.. ok.. no link.. wadeva.. WELL... The 1st quarter of the journey was like a warm up session to me.. like testing the temperature before goin into some bathtub.. was quite ok.. suddenli.. dunno wad happened to me.. i seem to be enticed to the patch of green grassy grass.. n i headed for it. like... everything happened in a flash... i was knocked out.. ok la. dun hav tat part.. LOL.. juz din turn back on track n tripped i guess.. i was fine.. but Annie got blue black la.. oh man.. so guilty.. why not me.. ah... kuku ah de dun wan come.. den batches by batches.. the rest of them came.. lol.. it drizzled for a moment la.. but i guess the wind's on our side.. hahaha.. blow wind blow!! den played frisbee.. funny people la us.. dunno why.. but.. it's juz funny.. hhahah.. den after tat went for blading.. the sight was real funny.. cos onli regina n chester knows how to.. the rest of us are practically immobile and either that or we'll be sliding down some small hill.. backwards.. lol.

First Challenge.. Overcome THAT HUMP! yes.. the first few humps are indeed a challenge to us.. trying to push ourselves cross that 15 cm hump din end up as easy as it seems.. need to gather some momentum b4 we head for that obstacle.. first.. we goestun(backwards)...bad english.. ohwell! lol. den u blade blade n u're OVER!! *clap*.. lol.. the journey continues slowly.. SLOWLY.. until.. we meet mr Downhill.. phew.. tat was quite ok.. other than me tripping on some seed i tink.. but PHEW.. i'm still alright.. hahah.. it's ok to fall down though.. i guess all of us need a helping hand at some point of time of our lives dont we.. * Mine was there but you simply ignored it* den we headed back to our pit sia.. n we're dam late.. so pai seh.. felt so bad.. cos cant start the fire.. til Mr Tan came and Tada!~ the fire RosE!!! from the....... BBP pit. ahahahah.. did some cooking.. the sausages look so tempting sia.. but din eat the taiwan xiang cang.. so wasted la.. ok.. hahaha.. yah.. den stayed alll the way till 10 plus to clean the place up b4 we leave.. good citizens.. lol.. wad a day.. the next day was sch day sia..

Last Last Friday was Main's 17th Bday.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Yay..haha.
That day was late sia.. ahha. Went to Cafe to celebrate.. of course.. i'm a poor kid.. so of course din buy much.. lol.. Went to take neoprints.. lol. Like so long nv use that machine le.. din look much of a difference i tot.. Haha.. den ask a lady to help us take photo sia.. then when i approach her she tot i was some salesman until she realised the colour i was wearing... N yah. She's from Ny too.. some years ago i guess.. hahah.. pai seh cant stay anymore.. hope u had fun! =))

Sat:
Woke up.. studied a little.. lol. Met up wif the YPSB flautists!
Went to Jurong East sia.. for ice blading.. lol.
Went all the way thr sia.. so far...
Haha.. Thanks Cladys for the cookies u made.. nice! =)
Hoped u all din fall v badly bah.. i tink everyone had fun yah?? Onli get the pants wet bah.. haha
Went to SWS youth concert at night.. played so many songs which i adore la.. from FFs..Games..
there's one song.. but oh well.. it's over.. lol.. the concert's fun though.. met my sec sch senior samuel n wei zhen.. lol the world is such a small place dun u tink...



END OF PART 1!!!!!!!! More coming up in nxt entry... =)

It's weird to see how the way things juz end up sometimes.
YPSB's concert was over on sat.
It started abruptly and ended the way it started.
In this major crossroad.. i wonder who's have i crossed.
Made an impact on and vice versa..

Through the language of music we speak,
Through the scores we unite..
Through the concert we part..
Was nostalgic when i saw u guys.
Reminded me of the times when i was still in sec sch.
All i can say is..
Memories, they shall remain..Sweet yet saturnine..
Things which r better if they stayed as the way they are..

YPSB was onli established for a month.. however.. the merriment will stay forever..

Things hav been happening again.. wait.. when did they ever stopped? Oh well.. lol. Hav a week break for band this week.. Everyone Study! =) count down for the day when all of us r back again! Am i just becoming like you? People say that we are moulded into who we r by the people around us.. so if they can change us.. y not we change ourselves..? Or blame our lives on others? Live life as if it's ours! (yes it is.)

I'm always looking out of my window.. peering through the glass to see that the sky is covered with dark clouds. I waited patiently for the first drop of blessing to touch the earth. But none came.. They gathered, they left silently as well..what does this all mean? There's not much time left. The decision was wrong right from the beginning i made it. Did i not see that things might juz happen the way? N it's happening exactly the way i thought it's going to be.. dam it..

HEY People!

Young People's Symphonic Band
29th July 2006
Nanyang Girl's Auditorium
Tickets Selling at $12 only!
Please leave a tag if you're interested. N let me know how to get back to you =)
Hope to see u there! =)

u're making me super confused of what i should be doin or reacting now. State of dilemma i would call it.

My hair is dropping at a real fast rate. Was juz thinking that my hair is growing in length.. BUT it's dropping in strends.. so no matter how fast they grow they'll juz detach themselfves n fall like sakuras in Japan.. die.. i can juz feel it's thickness decreasing.. oh man. scary la.. i dun wan b bald at the age of 18.haha..n my eye hurts. eyelid seem to b swollen.

The way things r happening r weird. I juz tot that i can dun care bout it n carry on wif my days as normal. but it seem that i cant. they juz keep popping out in my head. n i hav no idea wad r they trying to tel me.
dang. i'm speechless. literally.

y u treat me like a piece of meat.. haha. these few days tiring sia. Ytd had sports carnival? N i tink it's the first time NY having it? SO unique la.. but i tink it wasnt that well planned too.. but like.. ohwell.. it was quite ok la.. haha.. ended up enjoying it the most during the novelty race i guess.. the teachers r like funny la. imgaine having to wear earrings, sarong, a not v good looking umbrella, like those for beaches.. some weird looking shirt, that looks like dress though.. n having to run here n there, while still trying to have their accessories on.. n even hat la. humourous.. haha. Listening to [s]S.E.N.S-Wish now.. haiz. dunno y am i feeling like spare tire again now. wth la... ZZZZzZZzZ... y is that childish feeling back to me again..

Was at J8 for dinner.. ate something fattening.. die le. haha.. Den walked to the CC n started to explore the world of photos.. aha.. some r like real cool.. Jeremy have this camera that is called long exposure.. let u see one of his product.. haha. cool rite.. it's a clarinet btw... was like trying to mimic naruto stuff.. lol.. so interesting la technology.. haha. shall try to put more pics like this.. haha.. had 2 practices of the YPSB already.. it's a combination of NYJC, Xinmin Sec, AMK Sec and Commonwealth Sec.. like 100+ people de band.. so big.. so even though the room had air-con but it was still kinda warm i guess.. haha.. the people so funny la.. the piccolo not bad sia.. Sec 2 onli.. haha.. n he's like so small size la.. i feel so big man.. huge.. enormous.. monsterious.. haha... played moorside suite.. will hav other pieces coming on the way too..n the concert is like less than a months time.. mayb bout 3 weeks? yah.. work hard people.. Vigilant n perserverence will bring us far.. jia you..=)

wow.. today was enriching. thought of so many things. N these 2 days like so many things happening la.. crazy de.. haha.. Talked wif many people these few days.. felt soo.. not exactly nostalgic.. but thought of the days.. so weird la.

oh yah. was walking home yesterday when i met SAJC band people.. haha. talked abit.. but i kinda see them everywhere.. haha. cos saw them at causeway point that time too. So coincidental.. the world is so tinnie weenie small.. like real small.. n u can never know that the person who juz walked pass u might be related to u somehow.. like.. wif weird connections mayb..duno wad i'm reali talking about anyway.. haha..

today the DSA kids came.. 2 flautists, one basson, one trumpet n 1 percussion i tink? not sure if more is coming up..well.. one of them was like v nervous? n the other one was like V good? he played wad concerto la.. i feel like diggin a hole in the ground n juz roll in. jumping is too much of an exposure... rolling no one will notice me.. but he's good la.. but he wanna go else where though.. tsk tsk.. haha.. muz ask ppl in the band to seduce him..

Monday i was at np.. can u believe it? Believe it. Haha.. was like tryin to blend in.. but i;m juz outstanding.. like fashionly outstanding everywhere.. haha.. went to eat the SIM's western food.. not bad la.. but kinda got enough of it after a while.. i still ate it clean n sparkly anyway.. haha. went to library n drank the nice bubble tea.. indeed.. NICe.. haha.. den was studyin at the library.. hah... den found out some greatest.. darkest secret.. haha.. ohwell.. will update again k.. tired... haha..

oh my gosh.. isnt tat a bit too sudden... wad happened??

dam it. feel like sai now. shitty feeling. ahh. wth.. wadeva la..

Juz came back from tuition.. i gave tuition ok.. haha. some more like so near la.. yah. kirk la.. haha. I juz cant imagine someone living so near my house.. for the past years i always tot it was ULU n haunted for anyone to stay here la.. haha. his 2 dogs r like so cute la.. i tink i nearly slapped one's face. lol.. cos he was like resting under my chair. i din know n lifted my leg back.. lightly de.. ahha.. den hit his paws or smth.. den was like.. wad's tat furry thing i kicked? The funny thing was the dog simply ignored me. hahaha.. den juz walked away as if nothing happened la.. totally out of the situation.. oblivious.Ignorance is bliss. haha. so true seh? he wanted to pay me too. weird kid. if tat's the case he would have owed me loads rite... haha.. jkjk. then his maid also v nice.. yeah.. when she sees my mom she'll like greet la.. even though she dun reali know her.. haha.. PP also have nice people de. I'm downloading chunks of FF music now.. official website la.. ahahah..

have been finding more FF music.. n i reali found loads more seh.. there's this guy.. who calls himself 'Piano Squall' n plays the piano like dam well lah.. give u all the link. http://www.pianosquall.com/downloads .go thr n download the videos tat he uploaded himself.. so cooool.. n some parts reali sound like the original music.. yeah man.. how i wish i could wake up one day n start playin like him.....ok. tat's impossible.. hahaha..

oh man... Mid Yr Exam dam sucky.. owell.. Ytd was goin to Tpy for lunch.. saw this weird woman on the bus before i went up.. yah.. so it was like my friend's friend's were talking when this weird woman started scolding like.. keep quiet or sumthing.. din tink tat we were tat noisy.. so we continued.. the next thing which I'm gonna say might be too vulgar for u guys.. skip this part if u cant take it.. lol.

"Wad junior college! I give u $1 million dollars u go have sex at hotel! U tink ur worms how many inches? vagina itchy scratch la! U all wan follow me is it! Come i bring u all to police station. Sex Sex SEX! Now i know why all of u go home so late! must be use handphone call people meet at hotel n sex! U wan i teach u all sex.. parents nv teach u all. i bring u all to woodbridge i tell u. nasi Lemak ikan Bilis..stare wad stare.u tink ur hair long v sexy is it? I'll cut of n u'll be a nun."

Juz imagine this n repeat it 2 or 3 times.That's wad she said i tell u.. wow.. she's even more open minded than any of us i tink.. was like.. so random n..freaky i guess. no other words can describe tat situation.. BIZZARE!

oh yah.. n there seems to be something weird goin on wif my bag... it's like.. bad.. n sumthing is there... i have no idea tat is..... oh man... scary.... it's.... weird.....i tink my bag........................................................ is dirty. making my arms itchy. HAHAHA... k.. shall wash it soon...=)
P.S: I hav no idea why i uploaded that pic.. juz to try out the function i guess.. lol.. it's working.. haha...

ok shall update now.. haha.. later yy scold me.. lol. Last friday went to watch scary movie 4. suppose to be more people going de.. but ended up onli 2 la..haha.. ah ming. lol... he's like so... blur la.. haha.. wanted to show me his ipod.. was like tryin to on it.. but it flickered a while b4 it's gone again.. he tot it was spoiled or smth.. haha. told him no batt le.. den reali went his house to charge lah.. so omg.. haha.. yah.. went to watch the movie.. WARNING..WARNING.. those who watched alot of the trailers please do not watch the movie yeah.. it wun b tat funny as compared to the first time.. not tat satisfying anymore.. except for a few parts which youtube din show..yeah.. so.. oh no i gave the idea. Ignore me yeah? but read my blogs.. haha.. after the movie juz walked around n tok tok.. n walked from PS to City link.. i dun even know how to get thr now..

Sat was Mr Ng's farewell... haiz. wad a great teacher they're goin to miss.. this offer doesnt come daily yer know... haha. Mr ng u'll b missed greatly.. good luck to where u're posted to yah.. =) tat day was like irritated wif the security guard la.. wth.. making much more no-sense in his words... dun tink tat u need to 'conserve' ur pride n ego so u juz wanna put us down n drown us wif ur badge n the principal.. or principle.. both.. u din stop talking n gave us the chance to talk. not to talk back at you, but to make our stand clear. It's time... TO change a new one...lol...dam it..

Sun went out mac to study awhile wif regi.. den went to ppcc to c the band.. haha.. so pai seh lo.. might go thr next week or smth.. go see see.. haha.

Today had maths paper n chinese.. maths was like shyt le.. like onli know how to do the first part.. 2 hours was gone like in a flash la.. i used one hour to do my first page. oh well. lol.. had 2 hour break.. went to band room n looked at song of sailor n sea.. like so.. triplet piece la.. haha.. but have nice solos for oboe n eupho i tink.. horn too... so.. MAN..lol.. might b playin tat for Next year's SYF seh.. haha. yah.. den was chinese paper.. 3 hours la.. i tink i sit thr till butt itch already.. wrote compo first.. dun wad i writing in the end also.. haha.. hope nv li ti.. den after 11/2 hours of making up story.. thr's another 1 n 1/2 hour of reading n answering.. quite ok lah.. i tink.. juz came back..studied at tp lib for a few hours..haha.. met PCPS people.. tml's chem la.. i cant believe i dreamt of mr low lah.. my chem tr.. muz not b the last class seh.. oh no.. haha.. i smell danger..

tml after chem paper still have tuition at night la.. dam sian.. but no choice.. i've already paid.. y dun they collect money everytime i go.. aha.. ok.. impossible.

Her condition is getting worse.. i hav no idea wad would happen next.. be prepared i guess.. ciaoz

things r not tat beautiful when u get too close to it.. juz like a framed up picture.. it seems to be carrying some form of elegance... however.. when u step closer to the well-polised picture... u realise that there were many areas that seem tat the colouring wasn't done properly... so what should i do? distance myself? emotional physical mental distraught.

filled with thoughts in my mind now. haha.. The concert had been real fun.. the camp was too.. those talks tat we had at night..stayin late to think any gimmics.. the funny thing is tat, those we thought of seriously din even appear, onli those abrupt ones were used lah..haha. like the conversation tat was suppose to be spoken...well. Ahaha.. the dancing was cool huh, enthu horn section.. woot!

tok more bout the concert bah..went thr bout 1 plus tink.. if i rmb correctly.. haha.. had rehearsals.. was juz thinking about how the hall is goin to hav people coming in..haha.. den the tension started to build up.. dunno how.. but time reali flies.. n it was time to have dinner n get changed.. haha. i was still being nervous of danse.. first song leh. Like the small piece of appetizer b4 u go for the main dish.. ok lah.. was trying to act chim here..haha.

7.00pm. Seated at our seats n scrutinizing at the people coming in already.. dam nervous lah.. haha.. oh yah! shi chie helped make hair seh... haha.. he helped alot of people make.. so he's.. like... having a part of us on him..haha... my hair,yuxi's n chester were on his hand..haha. yeah.. n thanks Regi for helping us put the coloured wax leh.. haha.. dam cool lah us... haha. I was looking out for yy n koko lah.. but din c anyone loh.. so i tot they were late or smth.. haha.. but they managed to rush in rite.. haha..lucky..if not miss danse le. thanks for the choc n flower! =) An American Elegy was touching enough i guess...haha.. although some might find this song kinda boring... haha.. but i tink the significance of the song was made clear rite..haha...

lemme blog sum stuff bout the camp.. oh no, i tink it's been too long for me to even rmb what i wanted to say in the first place. haha. brought back many stuff wif me after the 3 days 2 nights camp. Of course is like super tired at the end of it.. haha. Stayed up late till like 2 plus on the first day n bout 3.30 for second day...

lol a vid about yy being oblivious bout wad's happening beside him, and the koko and huiyan fighting.. yoga!

This week passed kinda too quickly, with many things happening at the same time, the election, concerts, napfa.................ok suddenly it didn't seem that much now. OPS =X haha

Went to the concert on Fri night, oh man.. it was a wake up call for me i guess, our concert coming real soon... like LESS THAN A MONTH'S TIME! oh man, n it's like we still cant even play a song remebering which part to do the right thing, the right dynamics, where to retard and stuff.. oh man. Now i wonder which to worry bout, passing my napfa or playing well for the concert.. haha. well, at least now gonna have flute tuition le.. haha. by anneson on fridays. met him on the concert day too at least now he knows who i am.. haha.. it's time to wake up people! now that synergy's finished, we should devote all our time to the concert already...yahh!! hope the other people feels the same way as i do too..haiz..

The election was a big failure.. oh man.. tat suck la.. i'm gonna live in ULUNESS again...

Inspired

Aspired and Inspired: What's the different between the 2 words =)

Oh well.. kinda obvious tat i din reali blog any thing worth to be read for the past few entries, at least i'm gonna put in more effort in blogging today le=)

Was reading dunno when's newspaper when i saw the article bout the Girl from RJC Joan bout her getting tongue ulcer and how it had spread to her other parts of body. Despite her now heavily on medication and so on, her photos show no signs of backing up or fear towards the disease, and she's not goona lose without fighting a battle..Wow.. i wonder how many people actually have that kind of mentality and the will to be able to think like her.. also, since her situation was posted on the papers once, readers raised 130k for her.. wow.. i dunoo wad to say but.. STAY STRONG..

These few days had been pretty hectic i guess.. it's like having Dejavu.. coming home without see the sun.. tat's bad for health though.. lol. Heard from sumwhere tat leaving house for more than 12 hours is bad for the body.. i guess tat's psychologically correct..

Ops. guess i beta go sleep first.. shall continue this tml!

Everyone of us has a story to tell, no matter how interesting, or mundane, how boring. All of us have things to say. If, everyone wans to tell others their stories? Then who listens? when everyone wans each other to listen to themselves? How bout those who wans to help others but ended up giving themselves more pressure instead?